u/GalaxyAxolotlAlex

Like, anyone else feel like they are a magnet that attracts bad things happening to you?

It is getting exhausting because it keeps happening and it seems it will never stop. I personally don't know hos much more of it I can take.

And it all feels so unfair. Why did I do to deserve this? Why do others get to have everything? A happy life, parents, partners and friends who love them. Healthy bodies. Not get beaten, money, not get discriminated for being a minority etc etc etc.

And meanwhile shit keeps hittinf the fan for you as if you are cursed.

I could list out all the shit that's happened to me and I would be here for hours. Meanwhile everyone else gets go be normal and not have to deal with this shit.

So why?

Right?

Thats the part that bothers me. Therapist just shuts me doen and asks me what good pondering on it is... and its not bc I want to? Like bad shit keeps happening and retraumatizing me. So how am I supposed to react or not eventually break down crying cus I can't catch a break?

I can't even get a hug from anyone. I am so alone and no one gets it. I just want to feel seen. For people to kmoe the pain I'm in and the shit I am struggling with... like finsncisl issues etc. But you are supposed go keep hush hush and not tell anyone cus otherwise you are traums dumping.

So bottle it up and don't tell anyone. Suffer alone and dont inconvenience others by even letting the traumatic shit affect you.

Like... you are uncomfortable hearing 10% of it all for 5 mins? Try being me and having to live it unable to edcsoe it.

Know what I mean? How do you cope with the rage? The pain? The wanting answers or for it to make sene, asking yourself why you deserved this or why it seems only you are having a shit time and can't even tell anyone about it?

I feel like not even my therapist gets it. So I wsd hoping others who've had it rough could tell me how they cope with that specific pain.

So I have neighbors who have been harrassing me all year. But I moved on. Possible slurs? Ignore them. Being rude? Whatever. Neglecting their cat by locking him out and leaving him in the stairs for hours? Concerning but will keep an eye out should the poor cat need smth.

But they used to take over the laundry room.

Like take your stuff out of the washer mid cycle and toss your soaked clothes on the floor.

They once threw my clothes out in the trash and I had to find them in a trash bag... mind you this is after they hog up the machines for DAYS. (We onlt have 1 washer and dryer).

They also stole a couple of shirst a few times that I never saw again.

Well yesterday they left stuff over night, I finally used the dryer and what do you know, I go down to check mid cycle and they not only stopped it THEY TOSSED TRASH ON MY CLOTHES. So I had to redo the cycle.

Also I later found out they took out all my underwear and shirts.

This triggered a panic attack as for context, my parents disowned me and I am broke I can barely afford food atm, I could not afford to replace all my clothes and I had nothing to wear.

So I left notes explaining my situation and even offering money in exchange for my clothes back.

Called campud police and they helped me get my clothes back. Turns out they hid them behind all the machines in the dirt and got them super dirty (found out today some are permanently stained and ruined).

I graduate in 2 weeks. I have no money laying around to replace my clothes. I literally still wore old, Goodwill clothes and shoes cus I can't be buying fucking new clothes.

So yeah, I am sick. I kept ignoring it and the harrasment has royally escalated from some neighbors making fun of me and even calling me slurs to this person fucking me over and taking a basic necessity from me.

Campus police is sorta looking into it? Campus Living and my CA won't do anything but shrug their arms and tell me that was awful. But surely this falls under destruction of property? Or a felony?

Is there a way to get some compensation or at least get them suspended? Put this on their criminal record?

Also, I tried posting this on my schools subreddit and got massively shat on, so here are some answers to questions/comments they made:

• Why don't you sit there?

There is no room to sit in there, the first floor neighbors monopolized the space and filled it with their shit. Also the room is tiny as is and you can barely stand inside.

I have however had to do that in the past: stand for 5 hrs watching a machine trying to hold a laptop doing assignmemts like that. Let me tell you it's not feasible.

Also, sorry it was 4am or 5am and I was tired?

• Shoulda not left your clothes, always set a timer smh.

I did not, I go down to check every 15- 20 mins. They tossed trash on my clothes and reset the dryer cycle I am guessing to get it properly mixed in with my clothes?

• Lol, why do you want revenge?

I am not being a pissbaby... well maybe a little. Idk if you know what it is to have no money and be in a tough financial position but I can't just call mom and dad and ask them to buy me new clothes. Until the officer saved some clothes (some ruined) I had literally nothing to wear. I don't want to pull money I saved for other necessities bc of their harrasment :/

• Well it's your fault for letting it happen.

My fault? Not the people who chose to do this?

Even at my worst I have never gone out of my way to destroy people's stuff or steal from my neighbors.

So idk why you would justify this smh.

Atm I am also getting in contact with the office of Diversity on campus to see if my school can do anything about it and there is a police report already on file.

But I am heavily wondering if pressing legal charges to not only taint their record but get some compensation to replace my clothes with would be smth worth looking into.

Also I only have photographic proof of where they left my clothes behind the machines, the trashbag they threw in the dryer and the groupchat where other neighbors (maybe the perpetrator too?) would make fun of me or leave laughing emojis everytime I said smth before the CA deleted it after this incident.

No proof of slurs or discrimination, just my words.