u/GalaxyPowderedCat

To preface, I know they are not responsible for my mental wellbeing and they are not under obligation to accept just because I've had suicidal thoughts.

But it really breaks my heart that I've tried joining and being more active with college while I am an online student and after depression finally lifted (I couldn't even take showers).

I've tried since last September. I want to meet and help people in my expertise area and form a community with the other students but I haven't had any success and I'm still alone.

I'm so tired that I'm finally alright (I have a history of mental illness since a young age unfortunately) and life says "no, fuck you, you cannot participate."

I wish I could have some company or talk to someone daily. I don't even know what kind of person they are looking for.