u/GanymedesAdventure

I am an 'independent researcher' (sorry, I know this is like a trigger word -- and I do feel the social brunt of it) but I'm autistic and autodidactic with bottom up thinking, so was too uncanny valley for the teachers. My autism diagnosis came very late and it's unnerving how you can live 60 years face blind and not know the concept -- while being a successful and accomplished business person. I was a highschool drop out, took a course in tech for a month in the early 90s and was a millionaire by '95. School wasn't a fit and life took me to great places, my trophies were world class, sort of thing. So, I have this brain and a lot of testing and outlier in all categories pretty much. Which means I hid from the world and life at the same time -- most of my clients never met me in real life and I could live anywhere. My point here, sorry I am trying to demonstrate capability without credentials, poorly, is that I have decades of accumulated knowledge of a highly controversial, and totally misclassed, subject and wrote to it. Now I want to sponsor research -- but that trickiness comes into play, and that what I have is so complete but very complex and translational.

I know this is coming of corny, right off the bat but my papers on it have over 7k views, one was cited in a top pub by a top researcher. I am not social media savvy so don't know what to do beyond posting it to zenodo and researchgate. I put one paper up on prereview which has over 100ppgs as an primer and it got a good to put out 'as-is' for publishing (but needs work because it is complex and I am seriously not a trained paper writer, plus I had to come up with new terms -- which I know makes it sound flakier) and has 2k downloads alone.

I thought I found a facility where I could sponsor a $2M 'question' that would answer this, and solve a 60 year crisis/controversy/scandal, etc. but folks are already well entrenched in their own interests. The response I got was boilerplate and disengaged. I know this is ahead of the literature but it's all built on nascent work and taken together creates something pretty important.

I am on the outside looking in and don't know what to do. Or, if I should even try. Things will catch up I suppose, there is no glory in it for me. I don't want a thing from this beyond figuring out what has chased my health my whole life. The journey was in the learning on this end.

Lost connection to everything

Finding a PI, advice.

Was it intentional?

Which swallowtail are they?