u/GenZBartender

I(F27) am thinking of canceling my baby shower that is scheduled for the end of the month. I’m not sure if I’m overreacting, but I’d like to know what others would do. 
I sent out invites and I have received two RSVPs out of everyone invited (one is my mom who is co hosting. I have a fairly small community of people in my life already. I think a huge part of me feeling this way is because I have been already feeling so alone and isolated lately. I generally am the person to show up for others and be the person to reach out. I’ve noticed that throughout this pregnancy (I’ve been hyperaware of feeling lonely) that really no one in my life has reached out other than for things they need. 
I guess I wasn’t expecting many people to show, but I was hopeful for a few. Everyone else has responded no. I feel fairly embarrassed and deflated (Not sure if this is the word I’m looking for. Maybe small?). I really don’t want to wake up the day of and be reminded how alone I feel. 
I also just want to state that I am thankful for the one other person that wants to show and that even her mom bought off my registry. I don’t want to leave things on a low note. 
AIO or should I let it go?

I am thinking of canceling my baby shower that is scheduled for the end of the month. I’m not sure if I’m overreacting, but I’d like to know what others would do. 
I sent out invites and I have received two RSVPs out of everyone invited (one is my mom who is co hosting. I have a fairly small community of people in my life already. I think a huge part of me feeling this way is because I have been already feeling so alone and isolated lately. I generally am the person to show up for others and be the person to reach out. I’ve noticed that throughout this pregnancy (I’ve been hyperaware of feeling lonely) that really no one in my life has reached out other than for things they need. 
I guess I wasn’t expecting many people to show, but I was hopeful for a few. Everyone else has responded no. I feel fairly embarrassed and deflated (Not sure if this is the word I’m looking for. Maybe small?). I really don’t want to wake up the day of and be reminded how alone I feel. 
I also just want to state that I am thankful for the one other person that wants to show and that even her mom bought off my registry. I don’t want to leave things on a low note. 

I’m (F27) just shy of 32 weeks. I feel like absolute trash.
I feel like I’m falling apart at the seams. My hips and lower back feel so uncomfortable, I’m crampy/tight all the time, and I’m so gassy and feel like I’m going to shit myself.
I’m just ready for this to be over in a few weeks and for baby boy to be here.

Update:
Also, I forgot to mention that I didn’t make it full term with my first. I’m definitely nervous it’ll go the same way again.

I (F27) have been with my fiancé (M30) for over four years now. We share a three year old daughter and I am due to have our son in early August (less than ten weeks). For added context, we are currently in counseling and I will be bringing this up at our appointment tomorrow.
For the past few months, his ex has been reaching out and/or causing havoc in different ways. She has drunk dialed him from a bar (to which apparently that number and hers is currently blocked), contacted him via her sister’s phone, had Scientology pamphlets sent (were forwarded from his pat address which she was one of the only ones who knew his address), and now left his number on a dollar bill on a wall for people to contact him (She is the only person we know that goes there. She is also one of the only people we know in this area).
I personally am over the contact and her being in our lives. Truly, I want to move on, just focus on our family, and protect our peace (especially with another one on the way). There were some things that were said and done towards the beginning of the relationship that have left this to be a sore spot for me, including telling me he was only with me because he couldn’t have her (to which he stated was to hurt me because we had been constantly and majorly fighting at that point. Things were night and day compared to now). (I will add more if I gain the confidence to write it down) He was very immature with his words and actions, but has learned a lot through counseling. He in the past valued getting even over fighting the problem and not each other. Through the years we have really worked on being there for each other and focusing on rebuilding. But needless to say, each time there is contact it does bring back some of the hurt and feelings, especially with currently being hormonal and probably overly emotional.
During the last instance of her trying to contact, we spoke briefly on possibly getting a no contact order for it to stop. I brought it up tonight (since today it happened again) and he seemed to get defensive and frustrated right away. I had explained to him that I really just want this over with and I don’t want there to be the room for her to be allowed to continue to do this. He stated he would change his number (not sure why it hasn’t happened yet if anyone questions) and that no contacts take a lot of time and he already has a lot going on. He also questioned why I felt the need to go to extremes and I stated because it sets a precedent and boundaries. He kept telling me that he was still listening once I went quiet, and I explained that I really didn’t have anything else valuable to say or add. I felt like after all these years he will still allow her to walk all over him and will defend her. I can’t help but feel a little sidelined (I’m not sure if it’s the best way to put how I’m feeling). I stopped talking because he stated he would just change his phone number and I said ok, since I wasn’t going to fight on it any longer. After some silence he walked out and stated, “I’m going to sit outside because you are really stressing the fuck out of me right now.”
AIO thinking he should’ve done something a while ago and feeling like there’s not enough action being taken… plus saying something?
I do want to add that although there has been years of consistent change and effort, this may be something that quickly turns irreconcilable.

Does anyone in the area know someone in the area who does great hair and is fairly inexpensive? I’ve been dealing with some prenatal depression and really just need to do something for myself, but I don’t have much to put towards it right now with things being so tight.