u/General-Humor1008

So like comparing garda sabai bhanda affordable option for UK degree kun college hola?

So my bf has always been really good and treats me really well but aaja kurai kura ma I was like why would you even love me esto dherai or smt ani he was like kina ra ani then he said let's say aafno aafno things we like about yourself ani things we don't like. Ani in what I said, tesma chai I dont look good bhanera bhane maile. Then he said let's convince eachother ki hamile j ni vanyo that was false ra to my that sentence he said I'm cute fssss and stuff ani my exact line was :

Anddd that's the thing tho cute isn't the same as pretty or beautiful lol

He ignored this text. Replied to the one espachi ko ani asked :

You sleepy?

Or nah

Tell me ta

Wanna?

Sleep

Cuddle i so wanna cuddle

I was like sure yeah coz I literally felt a pang in my chest. Then he said he was waiting for me to call him baby in the goodnight text ani then I said I was also waiting for him to reply ani he literally replied with :

Lol 😭😭

I said "xoda"

Then he continued: Why xoda

Hya Testo na vana

Byee

I said "completely ignored it"

"Padhe padhe" garyo ani then I said aba sutne ani 2 min pachi chat ma gaako he had replied "I was waiting for u to reply"

Idk what he meant by that but yeah aba now I feel so weird when I try to sleep and the thing is he's even introduced me to his dd and we've literally went on a double date too and he's a really good person but idk why this just made me feel so damn insecure, much more than I was before and he's sleeping aba.

So I completed my 12th boards and even though pailai dekhi I've thought of going abroad after 12, I stopped thinking about it coz of alot of factors. First was I thought my parents wouldn't let me coz money ta testai ho but idk single child shit le garera and maile mention garda ni bachelor's pachi jau garthyo. Ani I got a bf, it's been a year ani after boards yo topic aauda he asked me that usko family le suggest ni gareko thiyo re try garne ho katai bahira bhanera ani I told him pani don't take decisions based on what I do because mero ta ettikai ni ghar bata nadela.

He asked me multiple times ma try garchu or nah bhanera ra I said nah malai didaina tara if you want to try then do it ani not just coz of me. He denied his family ra aaile he looked around and all ani he's kinda fixed on a college and the course which is actually a UK degree based wala.

Few days ago dekhi chai I've been talking to a dai in Australia ani he suggested aaile aauda it'll be better (context of aus) rather than masters ko lagi coz pachi points collection garna gaaro huncha ra pr lai thought ma halera garda as he discussed with a consultancy in Australia and also gave me all the details and told me to talk and that mero fam ko income and situation le ramrari aauna sakincha also given the acceptance rate.

Sabai stuff maile bf lai bhane and everytime I mention it, he goes purai tyo upset and dry wala voice ma ra wont talk ramrari ani now I feel like it's my fault for not being clear to him. Ani I asked jana man cha or nah and he said paila bhako bhaye janthe tara maile nai bhane re ani family lai usle nai bhanyo so aba etai fix huna lagisakyo etro herera so aba ta nahh. I didn't say ma fix try garchu ani janchu bhanera coz I have yet to talk with my parents about this matter but maile generally sunauda ni esto vayo ra sutchu bhanera gayo uh, aba if parents approve re ani maile try gare bhane ta I feel like the guilt is gonna eat me alive.

Side note - I'm not stupid enough to hold myself back if I get the chance to go and achieve my life long dreams there just coz of someone else ra even though I love that guy to death I think I will go if I get the chance to coz I've really been very frank with him about ma sanga chance bhako bhaye ma janchu bhanera but still khoi kasto weird lahisakyo sab kura le garda

As long as I could remember I imagined myself going abroad for studies tara this year idk due to some personal factors my mind changed ra I thought ma bachelor's Nepal mai garchu tara today I talked to a dai of mine who's in Australia about which course to take ani he asked if mero kei abroad jane thought cha ki nai or jane bhaye kun ma. That question just lit a switch in me that it literally has been a lifelong dream of mine ra aaile I'm not willing to even think about it bhanera. He even said aaune ho bhane work experience ni huncha and all.

Ik work and study balance garna gaaro nai huncha, but pachi gayera ni garnu parne is tei nai. And being from esto conservative family, creating a sense of independence is also a must ra I feel like bidesh janu could be my chance at that.

Main thing is I don't want to waste my time or money into smt just for it to not work out pachi. So if I get rejected for visa kunai ni country bata, I don't want to start my bachelor's late and neither do I want to take a gap year for all these abroad jane process so idk what to do. I feel really lost and confused.

I feel like this is the perfect place for big sis advice that I need rn at this point of my life and also this is more like a vent tbh. Please read if you have time.

Just completed my +2 boards and I'm not preparing for any competitive exams rn even tho ma sci student ho coz even though I'm not 100% sure about which path to choose medical ra engineering chai def not my interest ani rn I feel so useless and so alone. Not only aaile ko lagi but I feel like this will be me my whole life. I don't have friends I can rely on coz I suck at making new friends ra college ma ta just classmates matra bhaye and school ko friends bata ek jana sanga bolchu tara that's also just tyo reels pathaune kind friendship not like friend wala friend as sabai jana chutiyera nai gaye.

Ani I'm a single child in a middle class family, I don't even get along with my parents ajkal. Idk tini haru pani ramrari boldai boldainan, it's just like we're living together wala housemates. Ra this is just how it's been most of the times, kei bhayo ki silent treatment ani feri randomly it all goes back to normal ani I've been an over achiever 10 samma so aaile jhan I mero downfall bhaye dekhi I feel like such a great disappointment to them and to everyone and specially to myself.

I do have a boyfriend ra almost a year bhaisakyo but ali time dekbi he's also been acting different, like huncha ni the care is lacking, ajkal he just thinks about his wants and needs like bhetne bhetne garcha when hami bheteko dherai ni bhako hudaina ra he knows how situation is mero ghar ma as malai jana didaina ra ma bahira gaye bhane 2 3 din weird behave garchan ma sanga ghar ma parents le, tei ni he acts all sad and weird when I say I can't ra ali pachi bhetum bhandai. Pics pathau bhancha and ik he's a great guy he's just asking for normal pics btw but still asti dekhi I've been ali sick and I've constantly told him that but he still acted upset when I told him I could barely sit ramrari so I wont. And he didn't even ask how I was doing.

Yo sab ko chai it's not really a big deal coz kei chaina if he doesn't understand then ma ni k nai garum but I will talk about this ekchin ma with him.

Then top of that it's mero mamu ko health, she's had pailai dekhi countless problems with health ra gastric le pet dukhne bhanera hunthyo paila ni ali ali tata now it's been more than 2 weeks uhako pet dukheko ra video tray ra sab k k garera check garauda ni all normal bhaneko cha re. I've been constantly telling her ramrari purai check garaunu gastric le esto hudaina and what not tara ofc mero kina sunchan tini haru le. I've been so scared esle garera ra anxiety huncha everytime I think about this.

Ajkal cancer ko cases ni badhdai cha ra many relatives lai ni bhairako cha ra even my own grandfather passed away from it few months ago and she's well aware that cancer is a threat ra any symptom lightly linu hudaina ra check garauna jane jane bhanirako thiyo tara idk aaile janu bhanda jane ho jane ho garcha.

I literally feel so helpless in all this. I don't have people I can share yo sabai with ra from the past few days it's been weighing on me atti nai dherai so much so ki I have this chest tightning feeling ra kasto heavy bhako jasto ani I cry ettikai ettikai pani. Idk what to do. If any advices can be given please help

So anyone with strict family or parents and weren't ever ramrari allowed to go out with friends to even normal hangouts and stuff, How did you convince your parents like huncha ni gradually ali rebel hudai gayesi do they really stop caring ki sathi haru sanga bhetne nai band gaenu parne ho esto situation ma coz exams sakepachi ni they're so freaking strict ani sidhai nai bahncha even tho pailai dekhi I always inform ko sanga jane ani kaa jane and all ani I dont even go out dherai but just barely even month ma ekchoti hola

(Malai bholi bahira janu cha ani sab plan banisakyo just parents lai matra bhanna baaki cha ra they're going out of valley ani sidhai rati aauchan bholi so aba Im scared they'll think I'm going coz tini haru eta hudaina 😭 )

Gng koi boards ma kunai aeuta subject ma fail bhako cha bhane kasari comfort garne, I suck at it ra I need to do it atti nai urgently. Jhan tyo manche is like a huge overthinker ani jhan tyo sochera malai nai tension bhayo.

What are events happening around kahmandu this week or month?

5 marks ko 1 page lekhda pugcha ki badhi lekhnu parcha? Computer lai

Kati sakyo ta sab ko?

Last exam bhayera padhna man lagena bhaneko ta jhan madam ni kasto adhyaro bhako ho

So computer ko aeuta exam baaki cha but exam pachi ka ka jane k garne bhanera ideas listed if needed.

Kamalpokhari, tei din around kathmandu jata ni jana bhayo like civil mall ma gaming zone tira or idk aru aru places, Saturday tira ason ma ma gaye ni vayo aaile no vehicle day bhayera stalls lagcha tya, hiking with dogs bhanne chalcha every wed ra sat tya book garera jada ni vayo, exploring cafes haru, main ta evening tira view dekhne restaurants and cafes tira gaye ni bhayo, hiking, random thau haru explore gara, aeuta color mind ma halera sathi haru sanga color hunt ma niska, start posting if you're into that, try learning skills aba ta discount ma classes ni huncha ( research garere payema eta tala eso mention ni gardinu 😭)

Huna ta nepal ma volunteering testo sunna ma aaidina tara you can search for them too. Ani go to museums or events happening around your areas or like there are many pages online that give away info about recent happening events ra most ta free nai huncha pani.

Watch movies, cook, arts haru gara ani post gara if you want reach, vehicles cha bhaye rides ma jau.

My recommendation chai momento or evening tira wabi sabi.

Ani start blogs too if you're into those ani research about your interests ani stuff you can do around that area.

Yo sab chai ma k garchu tesko adharit ho huna ta lol.

What if physics jastai chemistry ko physical ko ma garo garo herera ani simple wala aaudaina bhanera napadhera gaako aaula bhanne kura le almal bhayo aba ta 😭

Paper and pulp ma tesko purai detailed prep chahincha raaaa??

Uthinkcrazy ko aaile ko live effective hola?

Yo chapter xodna huncha?

Numericals haru ma constants ko value dine sure nai ho ki nadine ni chances cha?

Technical ko ra sci ko physics question ma ali bhaye ni similarities hune chance kati cha?

All nighter hanne ko ko chan eta?

Conic ko 4 ota bata kun chai dherai focus nagarda huncha coz maile 4 ota kai basics ra dherai sodheko gare tei ni dar le mutu thar thar bhaisakyo so aba enough practice garnu parda kun kam focus garda huncha 🙏