u/General-Town3525

When I try it, it looks wonky and weird.. ;-;

Idk why, but drawing sparkledogs give me some sort of dopamine.

I ♡ SPARKLEDOGZZZ!

I wouldn’t say I have religious trauma, but I remember being in middle school and fearing for my life (or afterlife) about the “lake of fire”. It gotten so bad that I’d ruin my own vacation by asking my parents, “how would I know if you made it to heaven after you die or smth”, and I would cry at the answers because I “knew” they wouldn’t make it because of the amount of drinking, cussing, smoking, and wtv. I couldn’t even have a good time on vacation because of that. I was more worried about my parent’s afterlife than having fun.

I used to pray to god everyday to “not make me wake up”, because I was too impure to be alive, and that I also heard that children under 14 could go to heaven for free (without doing anything).

Idk how religious people do it all the time. It’s torture to think like that. I couldn’t sleep peacefully because I was so scared.

Looking back at it now, I realize how silly (and somewhat sad) it was. I’m not religious anymore, I’m agnostic theist. Even the thought of hell doesn’t scare me anymore, in fact I just embrace it.

I just like to imagine hell like a never ending Halloween town because of it being spooky and scary, and plus I love Halloween. So idc anymore.

I don’t hate religious people, I’m friends with some and I think they’re pretty cool. I just hate the “I can’t wait to see you suffering for being wrong”, or ” I’m right and everyone else is wrong”, or the savior mentality I get from the loud minority.

Like please just go away. Let me go to hell. I was already going there anyway.

When I say parents, I mainly mean my mom.

I love my mom, I really do, but I hate when she gets drunk.(she’s an alcoholic)

Whenever she gets drunk, she gets aggressive and very “power hungry” to say the least.

She always wants to get her point across and be right all the time..

Not even 2 hours ago, my mom was talking to my uncle (her brother) about lending money to my brother, because he started smoking weed a few months ago.. and how she didn’t want him to lend money to him and shit..

This was supposed to be a quick little talk and everything was supposed to be good..

However, all hell broke loose when my mom decided to come upstairs to my brother’s room to talk to him or whatever..it didn’t help that my brother was throwing insults at her..

My dad came upstairs trying to de escalate the situation and then she just started screaming.

I got scared and went outside in the backyard for a bit to calm down because nature keeps me cool..

I went inside and she was still screaming, but then i heard things started to break..

I went to check because i was assuming the worst, turns out she was just breaking stuff in my brothers room, and throwing stuff around in my room.

I wasn’t in my room at the time thankfully.. but it was still a scary sight to see. It’s like i didn’t even know her anymore..

And then after all that shitshow, she’s trying to make it seem like it wasn’t her fault and blaming my dad..

I noticed it starts to affect me in school life too..

Like when students at my school start to argue/fight, my heart starts to beat fast, I get sweaty, my throat closes up, and I try super hard not to cry..

I do love my mom I really do, but this is starting to get out of hand..

I get scared when she’s drunk..

Now she’s sleeping peacefully like nothing happened, while I’m too scared to even go to sleep anymore..

I need therapy or something..

Not even all of my flags 🫠

Crazy how things have changed.

Crazy how things have changed 💀🫶🏾🥹👍

It’s long so bare with me
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1: transneutral - A neutral/nonbinary, abinary , or unaligned gender identity of a transgender person. Someone who is transneutral may or may not transition socially and/or physically from their assigned gender to their idea of a more neutral one.

2: aegoaroace - Someone who is aromantic asexual (aroace) but likes the thought of romantic/sexual stuff (but doesn’t want to experience it themselves)

3&4: Apangender - Apangender is a gender that is both agender and pangender and/or somewhere between those identities. Panagender is an identity that is connected to all genders, but also has a connection to genderlessness/agender feelings. This may also be described as a pangender individual who feels they have no gender identity or a null gender identity, or an agender individual having some connection to pangenderness. It can also include those who experience all libragenders accessible to them.

5: void punk - a punk subculture that is centered around the idea of reclaiming dehumanization or demonization faced as a marginalized minority, whether directly or indirectly.

6: arospec - A group of romantic orientations that all fall under the umbrella term of aromantic. Individuals on the aromantic spectrum may completely lack romantic attraction or feel it so little that they relate more to the aromantic experience than the alloromantic experience.

7:acespec - A group of sexual orientations that all fall under the umbrella term of asexual. Individuals on the asexual spectrum may completely lack sexual attraction or feel it so little that they relate more to the asexual experience than the allosexual experience

8:Gendersylphen - a microlabel under the genderfluid umbrella where someone's gender is fluid between xenogenders, or more uncommon masculine/feminine gender identities, either exclusively or near-exclusively. Someone who identifies as gendersylphen will never experience feeling like a binary woman or binary man and will almost always identify within the non-binary, masculine, or feminine spectrum.

9: xenogenders - a non-binary gender identity that is defined outside the traditional male/female binary, often using metaphors for things like objects, animals, or concepts to describe the feeling of one's gender.

10: labelf*ck - a term used to describe anybody who either doesn't care, contradicts, or doesn't fit into labels.

11: neoidyn - A alternative term for Xenoidenity, Neoidyn is the same concept of xenogender, but rather than something relating to your gender, it applies to your identity. It can apply to your whole identity or only parts of it (which can include gender). Neoidyn can be used along side of xenos and is NOT anti-xenogender.

12: gendervoid - A gender identity in which one feels nothing where a gender should be

13:Finsexual - the attraction to those who are feminine in nature (FIN), either in their gender and/or their presentation.

14:Faesthetic - feeling aesthetic attraction to fem or fem aligned individuals.

15:paradoxigender - A gender that has Qualities that are a paradox, or seems to contradict itself. For example, feeling agender but masculine/feminine at the same time or even feeling like a gender but not like that gender at the same time.

16:xenonatured - Xenonatures are labels that describe people who have a strong connection to a given thing, enough for that thing to become part of their nature. This connection can be a hobby, a creation, or a fixation

17: queer- identifying with a sexual or gender identity that is not straight or cisgender.

18: genderqueer - a gender identity that doesn't fit neatly into the binary categories of man or woman.

19: censari- A gender identity where one’s feels most comfortable with the gender neutral spectrum but still feels a strong attachment to masculinity and femininity.

20: aldernic - An umbrella term for individuals who have, or wish to have, a body that deviates from what is expected in society or typical human notions.

21: multinominal - An individual who goes by and identifies with multiple names

Symbols(top to bottom): Kemonomimi, Alterhuman, and furry.

Pronouns: They/it/xe/he/she/vamp/zomb/rot/fang/bone/paw/pup/angel and etc.

My name is max :D..(for now)

This was so fun to make.!

1: Panagender - a gender that is both agender and pangender and/or somewhere between those identities. Panagender is an identity that is connected to all genders, but also has a connection to genderlessness/agender feelings. This may also be described as a pangender individual who feels they have no gender identity or a null gender identity, or an agender individual having some connection to pangenderness. It can also include those who experience all libragenders accessible to them.

2: aegoaroace - Someone who is aromantic asexual (aroace) but likes the thought of romantic/sexual stuff (but doesn’t want to experience it themselves)

3: Finsexual - the attraction to those who are feminine in nature (FIN), either in their gender and/or their presentation.

4: miransexual - a microlabel for individuals on the asexual spectrum who experience visual sexual attraction (or mirous attraction) but do not experience sexual desire. These asexuals experience a sexually-based visual-centered attraction to a specific person/other people (which can involve first person fantasies, sexual feelings, and other elements related to sexual attraction) but lack the intrinsic desire to commit sexual acts with that person/other people.

5: Faesthetic - feeling aesthetic attraction to fem or fem aligned individuals.

6: genderqueer - a gender identity that doesn't fit neatly into the binary categories of man or woman.

7: queer - identifying with a sexual or gender identity that is not straight or cisgender.

8: xenonatured - Xenonatures are labels that describe people who have a strong connection to a given thing, enough for that thing to become part of their nature. This connection can be a hobby, a creation, or a fixation

9: multinominal - An individual who goes by and identifies with multiple names

10: Censari- A gender identity where one’s feels most comfortable with the gender neutral spectrum but still feels a strong attachment to masculinity and femininity.

11: xenogender - a non-binary gender identity that is defined outside the traditional male/female binary, often using metaphors for things like objects, animals, or concepts to describe the feeling of one's gender.

12: Xenoidentity - Xenoidentity is a made-up term for indicate not a gender, but an identity that is hard to be comprehended and might not feel entirely/inherently human.

Made by:XxX_Izanami_XxX (Pinterest)

13: paradoxigender - A gender that has Qualities that are a paradox, or seems to contradict itself. For example, feeling agender but masculine/feminine at the same time or even feeling like a gender but not like that gender at the same time.

14: neoidyn - A alternative term for Xenoidenity, Neoidyn is the same concept of xenogender, but rather than something relating to your gender, it applies to your identity. It can apply to your whole identity or only parts of it (which can include gender). Neoidyn can be used along side of xenos and is NOT anti-xenogender.

15: voidpunk - a punk subculture that is centered around the idea of reclaiming dehumanization or demonization faced as a marginalized minority, whether directly or indirectly.

16: gendervoid - A gender identity in which one feels nothing where a gender should be

17: pitbull queer - A term for anyone who has had their queer identity demonized (primarily trans, non binary, and contradictory labels) despite being harmless and used in good faith, similary to how pitbulls are painted as big scary animals despite being usually friendly dogs.

18: non human - Nonhuman refers to the alterhuman state of not identifying partially or fully as human, or identifying partially or fully as nonhuman.

19: altervexo - Identifying as alterhuman out of spite. It can be with a specific being, species,or concept, or just rejecting humanity broadly. It is not an inherent identity, but something later adopted due to life experiences. Some can be directly related to forms of dehumanization as well.

Might post a xeno ball next 😋

(Debating if I’m going to do a part 2 or not because I have a lot of fav mlp characters)