u/Girlscoutdetective

I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know. I have no idea what I want. I have let a lot of things go (organization, hobbies, doing my makeup or nails, cleaning (lol oh the irony), things I find normally grounding or relaxing). I am torn at a crossroad, a fork. My life has not been what I thought it would be. I mourned a lot of that, and decided I would make it much my own as possible and even that, I have seemed to fail at bc I can’t literally leave. Paralyzing fear of making the wrong choice has stifled me where I stand. I am so conflicted. But I keep holding onto I want to have kids, I want to be married, I want family dinners and someone who is present, not just here. With me… this has spiraled into me doing nothing. Just the bare minimum. I know it is a form of depression. I know I get on here and say how it is so much better to leave, but how do you leave somewhere where you have been 20 years. How do you leave something that isn’t bad on paper, just leaves you feeling like an empty shell. That, I know is enough…. So what is wrong with me?!! (Rhetorical question, but a fair one)

I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know. I have no idea what I want. I have let a lot of things go (organization, hobbies, doing my makeup or nails, cleaning (lol oh the irony), things I find normally grounding or relaxing). I am torn at a crossroad, a fork. My life has not been what I thought it would be. I mourned a lot of that, and decided I would make it much my own as possible and even that, I have seemed to fail at bc I can’t literally leave. Paralyzing fear of making the wrong choice has stifled me where I stand. I am so conflicted. But I keep holding onto I want to have kids, I want to be married, I want family dinners and someone who is present, not just here. With me… this has spiraled into me doing nothing. Just the bare minimum. I know it is a form of depression. I know I get on here and say how it is so much better to leave, but how do you leave somewhere where you have been 20 years. How do you leave something that isn’t bad on paper, just leaves you feeling like an empty shell. That, I know is enough…. So what is wrong with me?!!

I don’t know who I am anymore. I don’t know. I have no idea what I want. I have let a lot of things go (organization, hobbies, doing my makeup or nails, cleaning (lol oh the irony), things I find normally grounding or relaxing). I am torn at a crossroad, a fork. My life has not been what I thought it would be. I mourned a lot of that, and decided I would make it much my own as possible and even that, I have seemed to fail at bc I can’t literally leave. Paralyzing fear of making the wrong choice has stifled me where I stand. I am so conflicted. But I keep holding onto I want to have kids, I want to be married, I want family dinners and someone who is present, not just here. With me… this has spiraled into me doing nothing. Just the bare minimum. I know it is a form of depression. I know I get on here and say how it is so much better to leave, but how do you leave somewhere where you have been 20 years. How do you leave something that isn’t bad on paper, just leaves you feeling like an empty shell. That, I know is enough…. So what is wrong with me?!!

So recently, I switched to drinking Acv (diluted 1 tbsp in a large glass (16oz) water and I have been doing this once or twice a day. I noticed I smell and taste much sweeter down there is this a coincidence / fluke or can I add this to my list of + things ? I really hope it is here to stay amidst cycle fluctuations and hormones bc it is almost back to baseline (pre-issue) scent. Anyone else??

I am interested in Stacy being uninvited to party bc she went to the elder party, and Suzie told others she was going back to her house. I think these two things led to their kidnapping.

The uninvited status and the verbal confirmation of their final destination are two critical, intertwined puzzle pieces that many criminal profilers believe directly facilitated the abductions, and I think is not as often discussed.

In criminal psychology, these elements represent a catastrophic intersection of opportunity, location vulnerability, and a collapsed safety net.

1. The Collapsed Safety Net (The "Uninvited" Fallout) The primary plan for June 6, 1992, was for Stacy McCall and Suzie Streeter to sleep at their friend Janelle Kirby’s house. However, because the Kirby house became overcrowded with out-of-town guests and other graduates, the plan fell apart late into the night. It goes deeper than this—

1. The Collapsed Safety Net (The "Uninvited" Fallout) The primary plan for June 6, 1992, was for Stacy McCall and Suzie Streeter to sleep at their friend Janelle Kirby’s house. However, because the Kirby house became overcrowded with out-of-town guests and other graduates, the plan fell apart late into the night.

The Vulnerability: Had Stacy and Suzie stayed at the crowded Kirby residence, the sheer volume of people would have made an abduction virtually impossible, but, because they left the safety of a heavily populated environment to seek a quiet place to sleep before their trip to Branson, they were forced into a far more isolated, vulnerable setting: Sherrill Levitt's house at 1717 E. Delmar.

The Timing Loophole: When Stacy called her mother at 10:30 p.m., she stated she was staying at Janelle's. She didn't or wasn’t able to update her mother on the 2:00 a.m. venue change, her parents spent the morning of June 7 thinking she was safe at the Kirby house. This created a critical delayed-response window for the perpetrator; nobody realized the girls were missing until late the next afternoon. So, evidence was compromised.

2. The Broadcasted Destination (The "Going Home" Leak) Before leaving the graduation parties around 2:00 a.m., Suzie and Stacy openly told multiple people at the gatherings that Janelle's house was too packed and that they were going back to Suzie's house instead. By announcing their change of plans, the girls inadvertently broadcasted their exact destination, exact timeline, and exact headcount to everyone within earshot at those high school parties. If the perpetrator was an opportunistic predator present at or watching those graduation parties, they received a silver-bullet piece of information. They knew exactly where two young, exhausted women were driving in separate cars, completely unescorted, in the dead of night.

I think, as mentioned above, a peer, acquaintance, or predator lurking at the graduation party heard Suzie say she was going to Delmar Street. They quickly left the party ahead of the girls, drove straight to the house, and hid in the darkness waiting for Suzie's and Stacy's cars to pull into the driveway. I don’t know if they were grabbed on the way in, or got in the house before the girls got in, or if they lured them out after, under the rouse of talking. Which, I think is the most probable.

OR: could it be a dangerous individual was already at Sherrill Levitt's house (potentially targeting Sherrill alone, as some suspect). Because the girls changed their plans at the very last second, they caught the intruder completely by surprise, turning a single victimization into a triple abduction.

OR: someone who knew that the girls were transitioning between the Kirby house and the Delmar house, followed their highly recognizable cars (including Suzie’s customized "SWEETR" plate) and ambushed them right as they walked through the front door (as mentioned before).

Ultimately, if plans hadn't changed at the party, the crime likely never happens. The last-minute venue shift stripped the girls of safety-in-numbers and verbalizing their destination handed a potential predator the exact map and timeline needed to pull off the abduction. This, or, someone was really actually stalking them and the phone calls are connected to one or more of the above theories.

The tragic disappearance of the Springfield Three was directly facilitated by a cascading collapse of the girls' graduation night plans, shifting them from heavily populated environments into a highly vulnerable, isolated setting. I do think that night would have happened regardless. But… Originally, Stacy McCall and Suzie Streeter intended to stay overnight at a rented hotel room in Branson, but when that fell through, they shifted to a backup plan to sleep at their friend Janelle Kirby's house. However, after the Springfield police abruptly shut down a chaotic house party hosted by Michelle Elder at 1:50 a.m., the girls realized the Kirby residence was entirely overrun with out-of-town graduation guests. Standing outside on the street amidst the mass exodus of partygoers, Suzie loudly called out to Stacy to follow her back to her mother Sherrill Levitt's house on Delmar Street instead. This sudden, public venue change not only stripped the girls of their safety-in-numbers, but it also inadvertently broadcasted their exact destination and timeline to anyone lurking on the periphery of the party, creating a critical information leak that a predator likely exploited to ambush them upon their arrival.

Is there a lotion similar to hempz that would be non toxic that someone has used and recommended? Maybe even one that is similar to the Brazilian berry scent or something unscented