No joy in day to day life
I don't know what I'm living for anymore. Like, what is this life actually for? Just handling responsibilities? Doing what you're supposed to be doing because everyone else is doing the same?
It's not like I don't want to fulfill my responsibilities. I just don't find much joy in my day-to-day life.
I don't really have friends I can talk to. I mean, there are one or two people, but there's no real connection where they're actually available to talk about life and shit.
I'm at a marriageable age, but I haven't had much of a social life. I got a well-paying job, but I've been working remotely for the last 5.5 years, so there hasn't really been much opportunity for a social life either.
I got laid off last month, and that made everything worse. Now I'm constantly thinking, what happens if I don't get another job in the next 2–3 months?
Being the only son comes with a lot of responsibilities. My family's financial situation hasn't been great either, so I can't just ignore everything, take a break, and simply do whatever makes me happy.
I don't know. Sometimes it just feels like I'm living because I'm supposed to keep going.