stop blaming your "lack of discipline" for things your brain physically can't do right now
i spent the last two years trying to "discipline" my way out of a hole. i had the routine, the gym membership, the journaling prompts, and the healthy meal prep, but i was still waking up every day feeling like i was wading through wet concrete. i felt like such a failure because on paper, i was doing everything "right" but i still felt senseless and empty. after a full week of discipline i could rot in bed the whole sunday wasted and thinking why? what do i do wrong? feeling like i'm just broke and cant be fixed. i finally had to admit that all the self-help in the world wasn't going to fix a deep clinical imbalance. it took me so much courage to realise i need actual treatment and decided to go to an outpatient programa live in chester nj tho so i went to wellness hills for a mental health treatment. honestly, it was the first time i realized that "deciding to be better" sometimes means admitting you need a professional team to help you rebuild the foundation
if you’re doing all the "right" things and still feel like you’re drowning, please stop beating yourself up. sometimes the next step in your growth isn't a new habit, it's a higher level of care. definitely rethink what could you do more and when you feel like you've hit a wall with the solo self-improvement stuff getting some help from someone else means you work on yourself too !! it takes courage to admit that