u/Good-Buddy-8364

My dad was diagnosed with non hodgkin lymphoma 6 months ago and he's still undergoing chemo at the moment. He looks normal, no hair loss, no issues besides fatigue, he keeps working etc but it's been an emotional struggle and it has taken a toll on our family.

I'm struggling a lot to accept it, although he looks fine, I have been living with the fear of losing him since we found out. I became angry, I am often mad at everybody and way more sensitive to everything.

Last week something happened that bothered me a lot. I have changed for the worse in my personal relationships probably as a consequence of this and I've vented to my best friend many times, also apologizing for being quick tempered lately..

Long story short, she casually saw my dad doing food shopping and told me "I don't understand why you're acting weird and are always mad, he looks great and healthy" and I've been feeling guilty ever since.