u/Grouchy-Bottle-4516

i started smoking june 10 2025, mainly carts ( bad i know ) this july and i notice im going through my carts quicker than normal, and i was slowly trying to smoke less and less. i always had a very very big appetite and i noticed it started going away ~a month ago so i said once i finish this cart im done because i didnt want to have a dependency. my whole life ive always had nausea due to anxiety, so when i started feeling a little nauseous i kinda ignored it, but i started stopping smoking as much and trying to do one day sober and the next day i can smoke because i didnt think it chs a possibility because i just smoked a little more than a year regardless, i quit cold turkey 4 days ago and i dont know if its the weed or if i have another sickness / possibly acid reflux.. but the day after i stopped smoking i threw up more than 7 times and i hadent even ate anything before i started throwing up, i was literally scared because every hour i had to vomit, no matter what i did or didnt eat. and if i fell asleep i would wake up 4 hours later to puke, the only things i had aten all day that day was just some water and applesauce because i kept throwing up RIGHT AFTER I WOULD EAT. Obviously at this point i was looking into just about anything to see what it was, seen chs and chs relief and decided to take a hot shower but i still felt nauseous even in the shower. i couldent sleep ( i started smoking due to pretty bad insomnia so i expected this) and i started to feel almost normal again so i resumed normal life with eating and drinking until it hit 10am yesterday. i felt so nauseous and i was scared to puke which obviously dosent make it better when i get anxious i get more nauseous, so i took 2 dramamine and fell asleep and now i feel “fine” besides the semi-constant nausea but my mom said it’s probally because im constantly anxious. i’m trying to still stay consistent with my eating because i hate feeling nauseous due to a empty stomach, but every second i feel like i could throw up all it takes is one gag. both hot/cold showers don’t really relieve anything so idk if that means if its chs or not, and im not having any stomach pains or anything else besides the nausea. although it was scary it didn’t feel like i was dying or had to get urgent help, but im still scared it will happen again. Is this possible symptoms/signs of chs? i’m kinda scared to go to a doctor because my mom dosent know i smoke 🙃 i also have big events coming up so im trying to convince myself it’s just my anxiety for the events. any advice is greatly appreciated

OK, so pretty much I felt like this my whole life and I’m not at all trying to sound homophobic or anything, I have transgender friends and I’m an ally to all sexualities ,,, but ever since I was like a kid I would always ask my mom “do you ever wish you were a boy?” or imagine what it would be like to be a boy and she’d be like “don’t ever say that again!” like every time I look in the mirror I’m just like I know I would be so much happier a boy but i wish i was born a boy not a boy now, and any time in having a feminine moment ( getting ready with friends or doing nails or smth) i js like wish i could swap places with a mtf trans person because it never feels right having the girly moments like idk and don’t be like transition now because i’m at a moment in my life where i rlly can’t like my location and family/housing, and i just could never imagine myself now transgender, only if i was born a male but im sorry if that sounds offensive