u/GroundbreakingAct524

Hi, this is like my first time seeking help outside of my family since I feel like I can't really talk to them about this.

I'm as of now a 20M (soon to be 21), who will be finishing my bachelor degree in November. I'm an international student and have plans to stay and migrate to the country I'm studying in. The path is clear, the wheels are in motions but like...

I keep feeling I'm missing something, looking for opportunities, focusing on studying, I keep dreading every next step I have to do, like procrastinating on applying and looking for jobs. Finishing assignments and stuyding more on them. I am in an ok spot, with Uni and other things, but just. The feeling of keep going, living in a perpetual environment of uncertainty?

Frankly I have not been great at getting up and sleeping lately, going to bed at 11 or 12 only to doom scroll till 3am cause I know if I let my mind runs and thoughts start pouring, I might spiral so bad I could >! kill myself !<

Another thing is that, the hobbies and things I used to enjoy doing, I don't want to do it anymore. Like whenever I want to or feel like I should do something, my mind is constantly occupied with the thought of the future and the anxiety of not doing enough for it. Which in turns just makes everything I do and want to do feels like a drag, and so I just doom scroll or endlessly game away so I don't have to think about it.

Tbh writing it out on here right now kinda helps in a way that I have to actively confront parts of it. But deep down I still feel lost? Empty? I don't really know, just that I don't want to do anything, and as mentioned, the things I should do and think about makes me want to just end it.

So yeah, haha, dunnu how to end this rant, but if there are people out there who have gone through something similar. I would love to hear your experience. Thank you 🫂

Like the title, I dress up my Sky Kid like dolls and make characters out of them intead of seeing them as my self insert.

What about you guys?

Like the title said, I have been wondering for a while why this game doesn't allow us to try on all cosmetic items, it could be a build in thing in like the TCG office space or something.

Cause I feel like peolw should be able to try on things before they buy them or able to mix and match outfits that they want to get eventually.

Edit: Additional to this, would anyone be interested in a fanmade Sky Kid Dress Up software they can use to test different outfits?

I am currently building one and would love to know if this is allowed or is a good idea?

I was hooked by a lot of things to start this series and immediately the anime draws me in with its general vibes, whimsical, and wholesomeness of everything.

However, the more I consume and read the manga, I must say, this is so dark, gosh its just so sad like when you thought things will work outand everyone is happy. No, terrible shit happens like in the next panel, no room to breath or mourn, or stew in the moment.

I love this series so much, but damn it hurts me immensely seeing all these characters — most of them are children as well — suffering so much...

Maybe magic is bad guys:))))

Edit: Wtf this series is insane, man idk if i want to keep reading it just keep getting sadder by the chapters;-;