So, I recently came to hear about this profession and, it has piqued my interest...
How exactly does it work with the pay? The starting is 9lpa but the companies pay for your exams and even give you the chance to get a raise for each exam...?
How hard is it, I'm an average class 12tb cbse kid, with average fundamentals in core Maths... and how many years does it normally take 😭
I have a hangout planned for tomorrow at the daryaganj book market, but due to the recent rain and metro flood I am a little concerned... I will leave from janakpuri west to Delhi gate no3, and walk to the book market but need an update regarding waha ki halat due to rain and eveyrhing... Is it even open??
The last image of kochi campus showed ongoing construction, how's that aspect now?
Plus, what is your all over experience there?
Any updates regarding how (or estimated how) internships and placements are going to be placed?
Also shine some light on how is the academic rigor?
Soooo, namaskar deviyo aur sajjano
I'll be direct, not good in any of the subjects except English (commerce with maths)
And uhm, so far I was having the mindset *I have alot of time* and. Now it's August, I have 5 months till my boards and I'm completely depressed.
Can you guys please share your roadmap, and what resources to use or Playlists to watch, or what books to purchase and with which one and how to start from+
I fail at literally everything. And I'm a cripple now... How do I work my way up?
Alot is faulty with me, in the sense that my current situation is very similar to a rat running away from everything.
\- backdrop: was bullied as a child, 4 failed suicide attempts, completely different personality in society (I'm the positive, analytical and smart guy. Inside I'm a freak who wants to run away fr everything and withdraw). I wanted to be more confident and yk run away from those thoughts then got addicted to porn and fap. Academic wise I'm dumb as hell, good in english but otherwise just alive. Commerce with maths, and I have an average of 16/30 (54%) in accountancy so you know my level (my peers have 28.5/30)
\- last year (11th ke start) I saw a girl in my class that I didn't knew existed and I did have a crush on her. I knew it was just a crush, and I had to be aware of myself, so I waited an entire year. Either the crush was gonna transform into a whole \*love\* or it's gonna fade away. During the year, I evaluated her worth for me, and my worth for her, and compatability and stuff. Nevertheless, just in the literal end on 11th (just before the results) I confessed and we started dating. In 11th, I did use to study teeny bit, now most of the time goes on video calls with her. And I'm burned out. I told her that porn addiction and stuff was in my past, even though I do it regularly and she doesn't know anything. She is also pretty burned out, trumatised and barely existing. A few nights ago we were talking about suicide, she didn't want to live neither do I... We decided if we still wanted, we will go to loha pul in Delhi on 19th and boom. Ps: we are not gonna do that.
Many times when I'm talking to her about general things, she misread them as me talking about her. I was not. Sometimes I also feel lonely and unheard, Infact alot of times-like I don't wsnt to talk to her, I just want to run away from everything.
\- I am really bad at my studies. I'm not able to focus and I feel like I should get my shit together quickly but I can't. I also think that I should start to prep for 5 different comoetetive exams (including cuet, ipmat, clat, etc). I pressurize myself and feel really stressed out.
Edit: I have a maths exam tomorrow and I haven't studied, I should but for some reason Im more inclined towards suicide or - hear me out, it's better taking an off tommorow. However, the bad thing is I can't 🤠 so what I can do I go tommorow see my exam burn up and fail. And then come back and maybe, maybe cry or just feel suicidal and burned out and what not.
\- I regularly feel stressed and burnt out. To the extent that I skip school, I skip talking to people, I hate talking to people, I hate making friends, I don't like human interaction at all... Some days I wish I could just have myself and no one else.
\- socially nobody takes me seriously, bevause I'm the easy going, fun and smart guy. I'm not popular but I'm capable, nukkad natak and film making, content creation and publicity. I used to help my friend manage her startup with my content writing skills, and also worked in an MUN organisation for a month for content generation. I'm good at talking to people, and creating countless walls between everyone (even my girlfriend).
\- I don't trust anyone but myself. I don't trust my teachers, friends, parents, girlfriend, no one. Ans no one knows when I'm actually distressed, I'm just great at acting. I don't want to include anyone into my problems because they make it annoying and even more difficult. I sometimes feel like talking to a therapist, unfortunately neither am I an adult nor do I have money. I tried contacting online therapist bots, communities, helpline numbers and none of them responded back.
- now I'm burnt out, crippling porn and fap addiction,
- to the extent that I can't seem to see a women (including my own female friends and stuff) without looking at them through that lens, deteriorating academic and physical health, already low mental health. Sometimes I make excuses to not be on a call with my gf, and just exist alone... Feels comforting... Not comforting but, better than anything...