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I am generally doing very well but sometimes I struggle with hearing voices and I wonder if I am actually hearing others thoughts. I never trusted anyone to tell me honestly if I were actually talking to them psychically because I always felt they might lie, reason being it's too awkward to admit to it.

I finally met someone I trust enough to test it. I was talking to this friend in my head and told them if I say orange you need to say back pineapple. Well, I texted them and they did not text back pineapple lol. I feel satisfied that it's all in my head. This may come off as really stupid but thought I would share in case it helps anyone.

Allow me to talk about the #1 bane of my existence for a moment.

I listen to my friends talk about their interests, their lives, themselves, and even when it's boring I ask follow up questions and make comments and I remember what they have told me. I know each of them well enough to write a book about them, and have spent time thinking about what their inner world is like and what makes them tick. I know them all on a deep level.

No one does this for me. I do not think I am boring, I have many interests and know a lot about the craft of writing, psychology, philosophy, and other topics. I analyze things all the time for fun. Yet when I start talking my friends and my mom zone out. One friend changes the subject back to herself. Another will just start talking about something in the room they see, clearly not listening to me. It makes me go insane.

I have a human need to be known and understood. Yesterday my mom said "oh yeah, I forgot you write" as if writing hasn't been my number one special interest my whole life and she actually read my novel herself. It makes me so tired of human relationships that I could just cut them all off. You may say that I just have bad friends but I've never met a person who treats me how I want to be treated. Maybe it's me!

So I went to NYC this weekend and went to la pecora bianca and had the best pasta ever. I am a mushroom fanatic and this had the best wild mushroom sauce. Plus it had dollops of arugula pesto and slices of pecorino.

The sauce itself was brown from the mushrooms, and it had a citrussy taste. There were some kind of bright citrussy dried herbs in it, I know because I bit a piece of herb.

Does anyone have any advice on making this? How I normally make mushroom sauce is with broth, milk, cheese, and thyme, but this was different and super mushroomy.

I would post a pic if I could!

I have been doing incredibly well for the first time in years. These post two months I have been exercising and getting involved in the things I love and generally feeling great. How do I prevent the darkness from returning?

History: I have been on latuda for about 8 years and I have been stable! However, stable for me includes a lot of depressive swings (which I manage). I have been through traumatic life events during that time period and have kept afloat.

I have been working at a low stress job for four years and that has been fantastic. I found a new hobby that I love on November 2025 and that has improved things a lot. Then I went on vacation in May and discovered I love swimming. I have been doing that 3x a week and getting great.

I really want to keep this going indefinitely. I really need a plan to prevent depression relapse but I have none other than keep taking my meds

Dating is such a drag and I'm not really sure I even want to be in a relationship. I'm just curious how it has been for women who chose independence over dating.