u/Guilty_Pleasure97

It's gonna be a long one, but feel free to read it :)

Me (28F) & my fiancé (27M) has been in relationship on/off twice for the past 5 years, until we met in person last February and immediately got engaged. I personally never truly thought that intimacy only involves sexual activities, but somehow i thought it'd end up increasing the sexual tension between the 2 in the end and you know how it goes.

Despite his shortcomings, my fiancé truly is a great man, best friend, and partner through and through. Basically a great human being. All these times I've been in awe of him as a person and a partner to me and when we actually met in person i couldn't contain it anymore.

We were lying down and he was on his phone scrolling through IG reels while we had a nice chat, i could still remember vividly his smile and the way he responded to my silly jokes at the time. I looked at his face and suddenly i broke down in tears and couldn't stop pouring my eyes out for 10-15 minutes. He was confused as to what was wrong. He put his phone down and kept asking me for 1-2 minutes but then just went quiet and hugged me tight, caressing my hair.

When i stopped crying, he asked things and i kept answering no until he finally cracked a question, "were you feeling overwhelmed of how grateful you are to me?", i nodded then he said "i do cry like that at times too. I be realizing how amazing you are, how lucky i am, how grateful i am for you and next thing i know I'm bawling my eyes out". We then just talked about our feelings and our lives.

At that moment i realized that was the most intimate thing I've done with anyone. I'm a first-born, a daughter, and Asian. I could never show anyone how weak i was before, if anything i should be the strongest in the family to carry my family's burdens. So that bawling my eyes out on my fiancé's chest felt foreign and wrong to me. But it truly was an eye-opening moment for both of us. It was raw, it was messy, it was confusing, it was full of tears, yet it was one of the most beautiful things that has happened to me. So yes, not all intimate moments are sexual :)

I (28F) was inexperienced with physical touch and was basically a virgin when we first met. I only ever kissed a guy once and no wet kiss whatsoever. Then after i met with my now fiancé (27M) online, we met in person after 5 years being in relationship on/off twice.

Then comes the part where we kissed. It was messy, he hadn't taken a shower after getting off the plane, i was also not used to someone else's saliva smell on me, i was full mode on nervous, and i think it was also probably sensory thing for me and i gagged on him 😂 Oh boy...did i feel bad about it lol.

I continued to gag for the next 2 days everytime we kissed. But he was very sweet, very patient, not being pushy, followed my pace, reassured me, and always made sure i consented until I was finally used to it (that's why he's now a fiancé🥰). And yeaayyy i finally got through it without gagging for the rest of his stay! 😂💗

So guys, if you experienced the same or have the same concern of it might happen, that's alright. Go with the flow and don't force it. Take your time to explore and be gentle. It's normal :)