u/HalcyonSphere

I have no social life. For 6 years I’ve been single, my old friends don’t talk to me anymore, I’m completely alone. I’ve tried making new friends and dating but nothing ever stuck. So I’ve been completely devoid of any kind of social life for a year, there’s some minor interaction with coworkers (I don’t want to be friends with coworkers). I’m so alone, isolated, angry, in a fight or flight state when I hear my neighbours laughing and socializing. How do I get out of this hole, I’m too depressed and bitter to try making friends at this point.

I’m interested in dry fasting for health reasons as I’ve done a few water fasts already. I just read about vsed in which patients can pass away after 10-14 days with no food or water, but I’ve seen claims of people doing 20-30 day fasts with no issue. How is this possible?

I’m struggling through a difficult period and I’m turning to spirituality, prayer, relying on god, but the more I read about the teachings the more depressed and apathetic I become. The same ideas come up in terms of suffering, going through trials, turbulent times that test faith, that we are inherently sinners, that god does punish people, the endless reincarnations of samsara. This is all so frightening I thought spirituality was supposed to help uplift you, not reveal the dark truth about how awful human life on earth can be. I feel betrayed that this is the truth and now have to live with it, I feel nihilistic because of this!