u/HappyAngryPuppyDog

Checking the rules because people have made me paranoid about using AI I don’t want people to hate me

It is just text and floral bordering I want to know if the three languages English, Vietnamese and Spanish are correctly portrayed to avoid confusion or misunderstanding

We have many mental health patients here the door slamming makes them upset sometimes some people are violent towards them and sometimes they are violent towards other people

The staff here want me to wait until Monday to talk to my case manager about it

I may have vaguely paused after they told me the director would be gone until a week from Monday which I am certain let them know I’m going to send him this Reddit post

I don’t know if it is ok to use AI I don’t know I’m stupid forgive me if I do bad things thank you

Because I can just print the sign myself and put it up there why should I not be allowed to do that

Tf is this pushback I’m not asking them for money and this will reduce hostility for free I’ll get the sign printed all nice and get my own tape

They’ll have to check in all in for security

I wanted to be with her and she just wanted alcohol. We would sleep together. But she always had some other boyfriend who she would seem to hate and treat much worse than me.

Whenever she would fight with her boyfriend we would get motel rooms and she would act like I was her boyfriend for a while but it wasn’t like that. I sometimes wanted it to be that way just simple and for her to not drink and not smoke meth but she kept doing those things.

No one ever told me to do it but if guys got out of line with her then it was my job to make them fuck off. Sometimes I would do that and she wouldn’t agree that he needed to go and those times she would be really mad at me.

She was very smart about it. She always wanted me around. She would even want me literally in the room sometimes when she got with a guy. I would normally avoid that because it was way too uncomfortable and I’d get jealous and mad or she would get weird and want a threeway and I wasn’t into that sometimes.

I think she might have gotten confused because a lot of times I have a brim hat and scarves and a cane or a walking stick, but those things are just my fashion I’m a cross dresser it’s not a big deal.

But there were guys who had to give her alcohol and they’d have to give me weed and a little money and pretend my jokes were funny for at least a few hours or I’d make him leave.

Certain guys she would keep secret from me and I realize now that those were the guys that she just loved for who they were, not like me and the guys paying to be with her. We were just business.

She went to county for a while for attacking and cutting me with a knife. We still stayed together for a year after that.

I feel pretty stupid about it now I really thought she was just my friend she called us besties and she told everyone that I was just her best friend.

Since I am a man who likes women I never know if it is ok to consider myself queer or straight or what is the right thing to say but I am a man that feels like I am a girl.

I lived on the street and I wanted to help at a big church where I can take showers and eat food and get clothes. After like a year I ask if I can help out and they have me talk to this guy who always walked around with his mom.

He seemed to really like me right away. He would compliment me on how I looked and I would just kind of laugh nervous at first because sometimes people get the wrong idea and I can usually just say something and they get it.

He wanted me to come over to the house and shower at first, then he would want me to spend the night and he was always talking about which area of the house would be best for me to sleep in and he always acted like the place I chose was wrong and it was weird that I chose that place to sleep

So I just kept talking about girls and women which I do normally because that’s what I like. I told him specifically that I was married to a woman for 17 years.

He never asked me directly if I liked men too or anything and if I’m he did I don’t 100% know what I’d say to him because I don’t 100% know I just know I gravitate towards talking to girls and wanting to be around them a lot of the time

Something happened though where he asked this other friend who volunteered at the church to stay with him too, he asked him if I am bisexual.

I feel like for one thing I should never let him buy me something ever again. He gives me gifts even when I get mad at him and tell him I can buy my own things which I can. I told him so many times I was quitting cigarettes and he would try to buy me 4 packs a week I would snap at him eventually

And he is always trying to offer big favors or give me things or offer me rides, but it all turns into him wanting me to move into his house and as he puts it be part of the family. I told him early on if I stay with him it will be just a temporary before I find a permanent place.

So now I am in a shelter. My opinion is I don’t think he really did anything that bad. He never tried to cross any lines with me I don’t think. I don’t think he is a bad person even though I don’t like his personality. His sense of humor is dumb but at least he has one.

I still want to be his friend but I don’t want him to try to buy me, he would give me money. First he said it was because I helped at the church. Then he got fired and he said it wasn’t because of help at the church it’s because I’m his friend, I stopped staying with him and left the church while he still worked there so I wasn’t involved in his life much at all at that point and he would still give me the money

That’s when I started saying to people that I’m not for sale and if they think money can buy me or my loyalty then there’s no chance they can afford it (he would give me $20-40 a week and I’m grateful for every penny)

I only second guess myself because a worker here at the shelter told me I was exploited and I don’t know about that I think he is my friend and we just did not have clear communication which is my fault too.

I want to just be up front and honest with him so there is no misunderstanding at all, I just really hope he will not get mad at me and still be my friend cause I just want to hang out with him and talk to his parents and watch Invincible and Everybody Loves Raymond ONLY every other thing he watches is dumb and not my thing

I suppose it’s up to him no matter what, does anyone have a good suggestion about how to talk to him.

Also related, there is a man who is here at the shelter who I like talking to every day and we both like music a lot and I think I want to dance with him but I’m gonna have a conversation with him before we start talking a lot I think that would be smart?

Edit (I have heard many people say he is a gay man, I don’t know if it is true I will ask him) also I am just a little bit weird towards him because at first I wanted to beat him up because he was all happy when he got caught stealing an ice cream from my job he had this shit eating grin and I wanted to chase him and yell for him to not be disrespectful

I have mental health I think about some things too much sometimes they put me in the hospital because I drowned when I was little and I got lost in the woods and I was just quiet for a long time and now I get too loud people will just hit me

I am so so frustrated because I am out of control manic and I am using that to do so much and I have become an independent community liason while staying in this homeless shelter

I got invited to this town hall and people are trying to distract me and want me to tell them negative things but I know they are wrong it is about hope and convincing them in concise quick to explain positive ways

No one is listening to me it feels like I can’t do this alone but I’m also the only person willing to do it

I know that I am manic so I can do these things but it’s like everyone around me WANTS me to crash I won’t let it happen while I still have these works to do I don’t care how crazed I seem or am

No one is going to be able to argue with results. I already have all this coffee being donated to the shelter now because they say it’s too expensive. I’m the only person I know that has a good working relationship with all these resource centers, churches, law enforcement, and the street.

If everyone else will calm down and stop telling me how concerned they are about me then we can really get some important things done.

I know this only makes sense to me. That’s how I know I’m right.

Edit: I kept trying to post this(below) on the homeless and orange county subs but I’m bad at conveying all the details right now I forgot it’s all about housing for homeless and that it is in Orange County obviously they need to see those things for their rules

One person reached out and was concerned about me. That’s cool they are good for doing that but some people are supposed to me fucked up. The world is fucked up and I can use this to do objectively good for my community

“Not sure what details I can disclose. I filled out some mail apparently they invited me. I know the building it’s next to the big library behind the police station

It’s the same building that has city hall and the mayor parks there I know that

I am just going to ask to speak and just let them know some things that can be done easily and not expensive to make things better and get these people off the street and out of your hair

They just need to be told by people they are gonna make billions off this park they can pay a few million now to make sure this community loves the park and says great things about it”

Not sure what details I can disclose. Orange County California I filled out some mail apparently they invited me. I know the building it’s next to the big library behind the police station

It’s the same building that has city hall and the mayor parks there I know that

I am just going to ask to speak and just let them know some things that can be done easily and not expensive to make things better and get these people off the street and out of your hair

They just need to be told by people they are gonna make billions off this park they can pay a few million now to make sure this community loves the park and says great things about it

The movies they play inside suck the antenna is bad so it is all broken and choppy and it’s mostly ads the people that sit in there go crazy and scream at each other

So I am gonna watch movies outside in the evenings and there are going to be different rules than in “the courthouse” which is what I’m gonna call the dining area with the current TV.

Outside will be the theater and if people want to be mean or hostile or just way too loud then I will close the theater myself and save my movie for later 🎭

I’m changing things here slowly but surely

A lot of people don’t really know what to say to me when they find out I quit. They just act weird. I don’t go on and on about it I just tell them I didn’t like the high because I didn’t.

Sometimes they act like I am going to use again or they act like 7 months is some big thing in a weird awkward way I don’t know what they are trying to make me feel but it is creepy.

And there are some resource things and housing that won’t help me since I got off drugs just by myself

I’m too popular is part of the problem too many people want to talk to me and get me involved in their disputes that is not my place

They can see a therapist or call police if things are bad