u/HarwelCoded

Im M26. I work remotely as a game developer, while also trying to explore stuff and make content to slowly build my own stuff. I live with my parents, and I won't say i pay the bill (utility like electricity), but i contribute in some groceries, gas, things like LPG and drinking water bill, etc.

My parents are in their early 60 and 50. I can already see his hair turning gray a bit. He have a steady job and a couple of other side hustle. Id say economy wise my parents are pretty much secured, but my parents have 4 childrens including me, im the first one, the rest are in college

Everyday I can't yelp but feel a overwhelming worry and fear. I feel like i haven't really figure out myself. Im not yet fully independent. I still live up with my parent so that i can save up for some emergency funds before i can move out to an area where i can network, socialized, and hustle more. I don't really have "job stability". I feel like i could lost my job at any time. Well for context i live in a country and economy and political wise are a bit fucked atm, and this remote job that i have is for a foreign studio, so i feel grateful for that. But like i said, i feel and technically speaking i could just lost my job at any day. Im trying to build my own brand, cuz from what i learn almost 4 years in the industry, im nothing if I don't own anything. So that's my goal.

But I can't help but always having a overwhelming feeling of worries, especially whenever i see my parents. I always feel like im running out of time before i won't meet my parents anymore. I feel like im a failure to my parents, especially as the first born. I feel like i made the wrong choice, im self doubting myself. Im trying to experiment with new stuff, but I feel powerless facing my scares of failure. I feel like if im fail i would fuck my life and those arounds me, but at the samez i feel like if i never try and experiment with stuff, i will eventually fuck myself not growing. I feel like im such a mess

I would like to think im not alone with this. Im venting here, but also i would like for some advice from anyone here. I feel like this is part of adulting, and im suck at it. Any advice would be much appreciated. Many thanks in advance

I already unlock all the weapon. Is P.E.R.K carried over to the next season? I just really wanted the weapon tbh

I am kinda in the mood of watching the full episode. But in the description it only link to the channel. Anyone recognize which episode is this??

Also side note, why some of the clips are like this? Linking the channel instead of directly the video?

Please I hope this post go through

Dari awal tahun ini thank God ada dapat kerja di studio di EU. Per kontrak di bayar dengan usd. I'm very grateful with this job, uangnya udh mayan to the point i can help out my fam with some of our bill. In addition, kalau memang semua lancar, ada kemungkinan akan dapat some side hustle, all in usd.

Now the issue is, i receive the payment via SWIFT Code, tf langsung ke BCA. Karena itu, payment ku langsung di konversi jadi idr (and ada biaya admin juga yang mayan banyak. Kuhitung2 bisa lumayan buat nasgor porsi beberapa hari XD). Im looking for a way to receive and keep these money in usd, esp in the current state of idr. I know that it's not krisis moneter level but I just wanna be sure. Trying to save to finally can move out safely from my family while also still help my family out somehow.

Opsi yang kupaham ada menggunakan paypal. Tapi aku ada teman satu kerja yang nyaranin aku untuk jangan pake paypal. Not only biaya adminnya lumayan besar (according to my friend, never try it myself actually), sering ada banyak kasus kalau ada apa2 semua uang akan di sita paypal dan ngurusnya ribet, legal stuff US.

Di saranin pake Wise, tapi pas aku cek ternyata Wise ndak bisa international transaction di Indo

Anyone have some advice or recommendation? I am desperately trying to get my financial better. Much appreciate in advance.