u/HeroicPea63

I live at home with my parents and I literally can't pee when they're in anymore. I usually wait until they're at work or asleep. But now even when they're asleep I sometimes can't go now.

I've tried therapy, medication, breath technique and nothing has helped one bit. When it didn't used to effect me in my own home a few years ago, I was in therapy and my therapist said to practice just going in the public restrooms even if it wasn't to pee and on one of the few times that I did that, the last time a peeping tom stuck his phone over the stall and took a picture then ran off so that didn't help things at all. I still can't believe that actually happened.

I've been to see a urologist and they hadn't heard of shy bladder before so that was useless. They scanned my bladder and said that it looked fine so I guess that wasn't completely I waste of time.

I'm on a waiting list now to for a bladder clinic to hopefully get a catheter but at the same time I'm terrified of using one. Also wait list times in the my country are ridiculously long for anything so I don't know if I'll actually be able to get one.

But anyway,

I'm just wondering how to practice gradual exposure at home when I feel that there's nowhere to start from?

Any other advice would be welcomed.

I have this issue where I need to pass mucus and it can be all of a sudden. My stomach will rumble and I'll have to run to the toilet. I pass mucus only, no 💩 , about 5 times a day on average. This has been happening for over a year now. I can't trust passing gas anymore. My doctor just says it's IBS but I don't know. I've had IBS most of my life but this specific issue has only been in the past year or so.

Does anybody else experience this?

I love staying up at night. It's the only time I truly feel myself and can relax. Sometimes I don't go to sleep until 9am.

I find it hard actually wanting to go to sleep, but then once I'm asleep I find it incredibly hard waking up, I'll snooze my alarm every 5 mins for like 2 hours. Also, my brain just doesn't stop thinking when I'm trying to sleep which doesn't help.

I can only keep a "normal" sleeping pattern for like a week or two and then I become a night owl again.

I'm just wondering if anybody else is like this?