u/HighlightAcrobatic34

This is going to be a bit short, So I was looking for tarot readers on etsy bc I wanted some clarity on a situation right now and I went through my etsy messages bc I knew that I had bought some in the past. Last year I had asked her in March if I was going to meet someone and when, then she replied to me and said I was going to meet a temporary karmic partner in May of that year. I didn’t realize until this year that she was right, May of that year I had met my ex boyfriend and instantly it was intense, she was definitely right by temporary me and him only lasted 2 months but at least she was right 🤷‍♀️. She doesn’t give very detailed readings but she is accurate and affordable, I went and bought my reading from her again, looking forward to what she has to say.

So me and my partner just decided to go on a break, mostly because I have very low self esteem and I tend to vent to him about that because I feel comfortable being vulnerable with him but I guess it was draining him bc he’s a very driven guy and if you’re not actively working on bettering yourself and fixing what you don’t like about yourself with a passion then you’re doing nothing with your life and I am kind of the opposite I like to take things slow because thats what I know works for me, Ive had my ups and downs because I struggle with depression and unfortunately I am going through a depression episode but I know this is my lowest of lows and its only up from now. This is one sided I wanted us to stay together because we’ve only been together 7 months he says he doesn’t see a change in me but its hard for me to change deep insecurities that Ive had since before I was even a teenager in just 2 or 3 months and he sees that as me just refusing to change when thats not the case. He told me he wants to take a break because he’s given his exes too many chances and he always ends up disappointed and he doesn’t want to go through that pain with me because he loves me. His mom advised him for us to take a break and see if he sees a change so thats what we are doing, I did say I feel like a break would just be more damaging but he said he trusts his mom more than me which I understand and whenever he doesn’t follow his mom’s advice everything just goes to shit so I guess a break it is, but he did make sure to let me know that he does want to be with me and wants to see me grow. We are remaining friends and still being in contact but we also decided to not see other people because we still have deep feelings for each other and he believes I am capable he just has to see it first, I asked him how are you going to know my self esteem got better as just my friend, the few friends that I have don’t know about my insecurities because I hide it but he says its gonna be obvious so I guess we will see. I don’t really understand why we can’t just be there for each and be supportive of each other while still remaining in our relationship but I do really want our relationship to work so I am gonna give it a shot and hopefully it helps out. I have never gone on a break so I was wondering if taking a break has worked for you guys. Alright this part is also kinda random, I wrote the first part of the post as soon as everything happened and I was alone, its been about a day and I was the type to keep our problems hidden bc when you tell other people I find that they hold a grudge for your partner while you have already moved on from the issue but now after talking with my friend Ive realized its not just me who’s the problem he also has issues that I was blind to before and I want to bring it up so he can reflect during this time apart as well but I am not sure if I should bring up our relationship while we are still friends.