u/Holiday-View-915

i think i am cursed genuinely. This year has been fucking killing me so bad i just want the pain to end . The one fucking time i try talking to a girl she ghosts me. I get rejected for everything. I am so ugly so a second chance wouldn't work anymore. My heart is heavy and i struggle to deal with the depression i face every fucking day. Its like a stab in the heart . I wish i was never born. How dare others enjoy their lives and get what they want while i dont get anything and just be unlucky in every way possible. This gives me sleepless nights and i just cry everyday at the thought of my life. Maybe destiny had this in store for me and its just tiring going through this everyday without any respite . Everyday my pain increases and i just wish i lived a better life because i am fucking helpless rn

These past few months have been the worst of my life. Genuinely how do i go through this. Fuck man i wish my birth never happened. No one speaks to me much anymore, the girl i like ghosts me and i just keep falling back into a shit state and just cry in my room everyday. Im so fucking scared for the future and how am i going to live like this . I just don't know anymore man . People ignore me a lot at school and i am so chopped that i cant get a gf or anyone to care for me. I am just living without a purpose for the past few months and nothing to look forward to

hey I am new to this spiritual thing. I am a 17m incredibly struggling with my mental health for 2 years and find myself distracted and affected by many things and cannot be at rest. I always find my emotions In control of me and dictate my mood which is becoming increasingly common these days. I want to stabilize my life in a spiritual manner and attain calmness and clarity in my mind . how can I do so?

everyday while at school I have "friends" , the minute I go home , my phone is dry and no texts from any of them for days asking to hang out. at school some of them purposely leave me out and especially during holidays. my heart pains so much that sometimes I cry when I see many friend groups going out and having fun and I don't get to do it. why this is not fair at all. the small amount of people I'm friends with don't see me as their closest and only see me as an option. I'm scared that I will be so alone in the future that I will just be crying non stop everyday. seeing people have fun while I am rotting in my room and having nth else to do makes me hurt . what's wrong with me . I hate my life man