u/Honest_Barracuda_471

i know i was molested. i know that for sure. my very first memory of my life begins with abuse.

but i can't tell if i mixed up a horrible dream with being raped. if i had a horrible dream (not about rape) and looking back on it, associate it with rape i may of gone through. does that make sense?

i want to heal. i want to let this part of my life go. i turn 26 this year. i've lost 25 years of my life to letting him win.

i want to start healing so that by my 30s, i can live. truly live. fall in love. have consensual sexual experiences. laugh again.

oh my god, laugh again. a real laugh. not be afraid to speak. i wanna heal.

and i think my first step to healing ..is reliving the memories. i need the clear picture. i need to know what happened. i need to know what my body went through. what she survived. i need to know in order to really heal. to gain full control back.

so my question is. how? what therapy can help me with that? i swear i heard about something.. edr, emdr? rde? something like that. that helps you find lost memories, maybe relive them.

i need that. i need help on how to go about this. please.

i'm ready to heal and move on

hi, i've been curious about this. don't really plan on doing it. just curious since it popped in my head once.

are there any spells to weed out the bad ones in a friend group? or maybe, just the ones who don't "serve" the group anymore? like, if its not meant to serve the bigger picture anymore, could you? to utilize a future harmonic friend group? get rid of the ones holding people back or holding the group back from a bigger future?

and on top of that, are there spells to strengthen the friendship in friend group?

if yes to either of these questions, how would you go about it? i wouldn't want anyone getting hurt in the spells, obviously. i just always imagined it be like a cut cord spell? but with a written script or something about which cords should be cut?

as a survivor of sexual assault as a child and teen, and finally healing truly after years and years and beginning to live my life, i want to make a difference in the future.

what kind of job can i get to help support victims of sexual assault, in any way?
i'm not looking to go to school, unless its no more than 2 years. so im sure that limits a lot.

but any ideas is so appreciated (:

this would be my first job in public (agoraphobic) and i'm really hoping to get it. i applied early this midnight and plan on going into the store on friday to ask about their hiring. i have completely availability for weekends, and weekdays i am available 9am-4pm.

does anyone have any tips or how i should handle asking for hiring when i go in person? any help is so appreciated. i plan on telling them the availability i have. i think this would be a perfect job for me to start now that i've overcome my agoraphobia and am ready to get a job years into my adulthood. it's so perfect too considering its part time and i think shifts are at most 4-5 hours about 4 days a week?

ok thank you !! any help to getting hired is appreciated. any tips on if i do get hired is appreciated too !!! im so looking forward to this

mtf, i am wanting to start doing makeup. i dont want to do a ton, just a natural simple look that covers up my blemishes, unevenness, and 5'o clock shadow until i get laser. looking to shop at a drug store as im low on funds

thank you !!:)