I'm unable to make friends.
After multiple gap years I finally applied to university (just finished my first year), and I enjoyed studying. It gave some routine to my life, some reason to take care of myself but I'm filled with loneliness. I have no family other than my mother but she doesn't want to be in contact with me. No friends.
I tried to make friends. I joined after uni activities, sat next to others, tried to talk to people and get to know them but I haven't been successful. The chat doesn't process to anything, after the course the communication just ends. I tried to chat with few people after each course but they were really uninterested and barely answered anything.
Idk I just feel like I'm not worth to be friends with. I'm awkward and ugly. There is nothing that stands out, no reason to be friends with. I have no connections to offer, no looks, nothing. Even though I try to keep myself busy with hobbies it feels like there is nothing people want. Like I can't offer anything.