u/Hopeful_Drive5845

I slept in a tent in a park in April and there were rats.

How do you deal with avoiding getting a disease from animals in the wild?

Particularly forests.

For me it was going homeless. Once I said that (after previously, before becoming homeless, supporting them through resourcing), it was good bye. Stopped getting messages, stop getting invited, but it was great when I could give insight into their partners choices, or, hold space for when they were realizing they lack the Relational aspect in life (successful, but not happy).

Did you also got abandoned by your "friends"?

Part of my attempt at trying to prepare for the winter (-3°C max, 26.6°F)

Should I use an electric blanket inside the tent?

Thinking of using a sleeping bag designed to withstand 10 degrees lower than temperature and then another outer sleeping bag. Inside the inner sleeping bag to wrap myself with an electric blanket and also hand warmers (electric) at my feet.

Will this setup work long term?

Shower, shave at the gym

Stay in the library where recharging the power banks+phone+laptop

Sounds like a good plan?

Latest kdenlive I'm interested in generating audio waveform visualization as video from an audio track.

Anyone knows how to do it?

Have any of you done this? What would you recommend in approaching such professionals?

I could edit two videos monthly (end product) with the condition to upload and store materials and end product in the cloud when finished so as not to fill my disk.

I've an Acer i5 with 16+ gb using kdenlive

Not a professional, though I've done a bit of editing

My biggest problem would be audio (to balance it etc.) and what software to use for recording on host and guest(s) machines to eliminate internet jitter

I'm thinking to get non critical videos work and give them a shot

Of course, requirements would be good lightning, horizontal (wide screen) recording, microphone

Any thoughts?

I come from south east of Europe which means I was raised by people who were totally traumatized in a totalitarian regime.

Current cptsd treatment is developed in western countries who didn't experience a multi generational totalitarian dictatorship and thus is ineffective.

Having been raised by two addicts in a cesspool.of a country, I never learned to filter for safety from a place of safety. All I learned was to push through, suffer the consequences, see the mistake in hindsight and never acknowledge nor learn from the mistake.

It's no wonder I've made so many mistakes such that I've ended up with permanent health issues.

70 to 80% of people are unhealthy. The majority of healthy and safe people can hold down a maximum of 5 close and intimate friendships (outside of family if they've one, and if they do, it's likely that the closest is another family).

This means the vast majority of unhealthy people (insecure attachment) have no friends or they're friends with other unhealthy people. Workplace too.

Tell me the end of the world without telling me the end of the world.

So... Ireland has this rule of not being allowed to park the car for more than 2 or 3 hours in a free parking spot.

How am I gonna live from my car if 1) I don't want to move my car often (I'm using the bus), and, 2) they'll tow the car if in breach of the rule

Google Maps street view is outdated for some of the streets (read: most) where I'm planning to park and there aren't good user photos of those. 😐😑😕

I'm going insane!

LE: heartbreaking stories in the comments. The power of community lies in knowing we're not alone. It seems we share fathers who weren't present for us in our lives, who nurtured and protected us. I wish this day goes easy on all of us and may we find contentment and father figures in our lives (if that's something we're open to) that will give us a healthy relationship.

For those of us who had abusive/neglectful/abandoning fathers, how are you coping this father's day?

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For myself, I'm watching a lot of movies, did groceries, reading reddit from time to time and writing comments and/or responding to others, thinking what my next steps are to secure a better future, planning on how to enjoy a live stream at 5pm, and then listening to an audiobook while reading Facebook a bit, and, journaling.

I am reading on the so many murders in Dublin, Ireland and

1. I wish they'd have targeted and killed me when I slept on the streets and ran into two strangers at 2am who shouted at me

and

2. I wish they'll target me when I'm going to be homeless again in Ireland and successfully carry the job to dispose of me

I hope my car that I'll live in will get towed and have me sleep on the streets so I can be targeted

TW: suicide

Between 2017 and 2020 I've went through almost a dozen therapists and just when I thought I've achieved healing, I got retraumatized at work after trying to change companies in December, 2020. Trying to go back to my home country to buy an apartment also backfired as I met evil people who manipulated me and gaslit me further traumatizing me.

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In the end, I ended up homeless unable to secure a job, losing my dog, the house I was renting, quitting my job, and finally spending all of my savings on trying to survive. Besides going to a psych ward which proved almost useless. Twice.

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Now, 6+ years since I got retraumatized at work, after homelessness, and coming back to my home country, I have permanent health damage from corruption in my home country. Which is my fault because I got used to Western Europe and forgot how fatal corruption is in SE Europe.

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I just wish I have went through with my attempt in December of 2021 to end my life. I regret it every single day.

LE: enabled NSFW + tw

Ireland is notoriously anti homeless. A lot of students couch surf and / or live in their cars. I wonder how do they do it living in their cars in Dublin?

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Anybody here knows?

Why do we have reviews for places on Google Maps but not for therapists? Trauma therapy directories (such as NARM, Somatic Experiencing, IFS etc.) don't have the functionality to leave a verified review for a therapist you did therapy with.

Due to legal restrictions. I wanted to go in that country because they speak English, signs are in English, English is an official language. Now I can't go there. Living in a tent in the winter will have me dead. I hate my life right now. 😔

I'm planning on parking for a long time in a quiet, off the beat, residential area with houses and unrestricted parking spaces. Unfortunately, there are houses either side of the road so I'll try to park somewhere where I won't be blocking the driveway to a house.

Given the neighborhood, I'm planning on leaving at 7am and come back at 8:30pm most days (come back earlier fri-sun).

What are the chances that the people living there will eventually catch on my car being parked there throughout the day (I'm taking the bus, only sleeping in the car) and eventually force me to leave?

This is in Ireland, by the way.

For a 2010 Toyota RAV4 with backseats removed.

Also, should I raise the "bed"? I've seen setups with boxes underneath. I don't think I'll be storing much. I'll only have some clothes, toiletries, towels, footwear, blankets, sleeping bag, heat pads/electric blankets and the electronics. That's about it that I'll store. Documents will go into a safe box.