In Ireland. I need to know how to get an address that can go as residential address so that if the state asks for proof of address, I can supply them with one.
I'm losing my mind over this!
Since my retraumatization in early 2021, I find myself watching mental health content every day to keep functioning in my flight response (I listen to in the background and also sometimes actively watch the content).
Do you also do the same? Listen/watch mental health content to feel safe enough to get from freeze into your flight response so you can fidget/distract yourself?
What do you do when you realized you fawned when you should've said 'no'?
Mine are:
• The Body Keeps the Score, Bessel van der Kolk
• Trauma and Memory, Peter A. Levine
• In an unspoken voice, Peter A. Levine
• Waking the tiger, Peter A. Levine
• Healing Trauma, Peter A. Levine
• An autobiography of trauma, Peter A. Levine
• Holistically treating Complex PTSD, Pete Walker
• The myth of normal, Gabor Maté and Daniel Maté
• Healing the fragmented selves of trauma survivors, Janina Fisher
• Running on empty, Janice Webb
• Like a wave we break, Jane Marie Chen
• No bad parts, Richard Schwartz
• You're the one you've been waiting for, Richard Schwartz
• Sociopath, Patric Gagne
• Trauma and Recovery, Judith Lewis Herman
• Practical optimism, Sue Varma
• Complex PTSD, Pete Walker
• The practical guide for healing developmental trauma, Laurence Heller and Brad Kammer
• Psychotherapy and the highly sensitive person, Elaine N. Aron
• The complex PTSD workbook, Arielle Schwartz
• Traumatized, Kati Morton
• What my bones know, Stephanie Foo
• Blind to Betrayal, Jennifer Freyd and Pamela Birrell
• The courage to heal
What are some you'd recommend?
If my invalidity pension gets approved, I'm planning on going back to Ireland, buy a cheap car, insure it and have a rented po box. Live in the car and shower in the gym. Eat in the city or at homeless places.
Don't want to start a mortgage in this corrupt shit hole of a country.
My home country doesn't recognize PTSD as a debilitating condition. Instead, they're forcing schizophrenia on me in order to get past the vetting process for doing requested paperwork for international invalidity pension. 😐😑😕😔😣
The psychiatrist already suggested to change my treatment. Nuts! I'm on an anti psychotic which helps me with mood and anxiety and sleep, so I'll definitely not going to change it.
It's just sad to have been raised by two addicts, be abused and neglected in a former communist country and get retraumatized at work despite doing all the right things.
In case you're found dead, do you carry a piece of paper with instructions for your burial? I wouldn't want to be sent to my home country to my family. I'd rather be buried in a forest or somewhere (no coffin), in the country where I'm found. Have you ever taken this into account? Not that planning to be dead is wanted, just for any situation (fatal assault etc.).