u/Horror-Appointment79

Hello, I am a 27man who was always active back in the days, doing side projects, side hustles, making money(small amounts) of everything I put my hands on starting from reselling toothpaste, selling even condoms, having a large ebay store that operates in the US and reselling literally everything to playing a role in organising concerts. That was when I was 17-21, I wasn’t making big money, but it was enough for me to live knowing that I was living in north africa.

Covid came, I stopped doing everything, I lost my hunger for being a successful entrepreneur and was delaying every idea I had till later, later never came. I focus on moving abroad and finishing my masters, I did, and now I am stuck on a customer support role to support myself because even the field I studied is not really my thing, I am very active, I like thinking of solutions, talking to people about anytype of business, trying to make every thing on my eyes a money source, but I studied IT, which makes me sit for hours in front of a laptop and I just can’t do that mainly for living.

Now that I look back, I realize that I waisted my potential and lost a lot of time, focusing on moving abroad, failed relationships, finishing a degree I don’t care about and I feel too old to start anything new. I don’t even know where to start and what to do anymore. The people I know are happy with their life(successful relationships, jobs) and don’t really care about this whole thing so I don’t have anyone to share this with. Even my partner made fun of multiple ideas I told her about and called them ‘stupid’( and honestly, I think that most of them are) Every idea I have seems impossible to make happen with how fast everything and everyone is moving.

Now putting my age into consideration and knowing how much time and failure it takes to make one idea profitable, do I even have enough time knowing that I also want to have kids, a successful relationship soon at some point.

Me and her were in some real big up and downs, we dated for almost two years, first girl I would say I have ever really loved. But when you love someone, life puts you through a lot of challenges. We moved in together last year for 3months, a huge problem happened and I had to move out forcefully, it was a terrible period for both of us and we did not talk for a while. We then found our way back to each other and we moved back together again in january. I was hoping everything will go great, it wasn’t, still I proposed to her and really wanted everything to go good, she was happy with it. A lot of terrible things happened after that again and she stopped wearing the ring but still wants to continue with the marriage and fix things. I wanted that too, so bad, till one day I started feeling random pain in my stomach, then under my ribs then in my balls. I hid the majority of what I feel from her and started doing some doctor checkups, from a doctor to another, they all said it’s just stress and nothing too big to worry about. Until one said that I have a problem with my nervous system, found that I have some kind of a chronic illness that Im too scared to check and ive been avoiding doing an MRI because that machine scares me, I can’t be in it. I asked a doctor if there is a way to so this without an MRI, he said they check my blood and sperm in labs to see if there is anything missing in my system. I gave them my sperm, one week later I visited the doctor again and Ive been asked if I know that I am not able to have kids, I never did any check up so I told the doctor that I am sexually active and I never did any checkups on that, then he said that my sperm is not good enough to impregnate a woman.

That same day, I received a text from fiancé in which she said she wants to leave me and I am the worst (thinking that I went out to cheat on her), I went out early in the morning and didn’t tell her im going anywhere. I read the text, broke down in the bus, then I went back home and begged her to not leave me and told her I am sick but I hid the fact that I can’t have kids because it was still not 100% sure. She hugged me and we talked a bit but things were still toxic between us but we both wanted to fix them somehow.

A week later, I did the hormonal blood test and a spermogram, and found out that I can’t have kids, I didn’t know what to do nor who to talk to. My fiancé’s biggest dream is to have a family and kids, I also wanted kids. I felt like if I stay with her I will take that away from her, and if I tell her she may feel pity for me and stay with just because she loves me. I started locking myself in a shell again, being too vulnerable, breaking down over everything and eventually I told her I want to move out the house but couldn’t tell her we should break up because I love her. She said ‘fuck you’ its over and left. I know I pushed her to do that. But I can’t take her dream of having a family away from her just because I am not complete. It will crush my heart when Ill see her with another man, maybe raising a family but It’s not meant for me. I am lost

I am normally a non-emotional guy, I can watch titanic 100times and laugh at the ending, watch love stories and be bored. But this show is something else, I finished it for the second time in about one year today, and I was happy, sad, got tears in my eyes, all those weird emotions that I usually rarely feel came up at once.
It’s just Legen-dary. I’m really confused why I love this show so much, my girlfriend says that it’s too boring and not funny at all.
My favourite character in Barney, but damn all the characters are completing each other. I don’t know if someone will get me because I don’t know how to express what I am feelings right now.

Is there any similar show? If I don’t find it I will just rewatch it again

Hi, I have revolut for a while now. I have collected a few thousands of points already but I don’t know what’s the best way to spend them.

I like to travel and I want to visit everywhere in the EU so I was thinking Airmiles or hotels.

For hotels, its not worth it, with all my points I get around 200euro discount max in one stay.

For airmiles, there is a lot of companies out there, Ryanair, the one I use the most offer a shitty. rate

What’s your advice? And how do you maximise you Revpoint usage?