I committed COCSA..
hi. i am currently 31 🔁 (F) but at the time i committed COCSA i was 5-7. I forced my cousins to kiss me and play family. My one cousin (same age as me) was a multiple time victim of my actions. My other cousin (older by 1 year) was a 2 time victim of my actions. Me and my older cousin still talk and are still semi-close. I don’t think she realizes that it was COCSA. I apologized to her and she didn’t even understand what i was trying to say. My cousin (my age) and i are not close at all anymore. I don’t know if i should write her a letter or send her a long text apologizing or just don’t say anything at all. I don’t understand why i did it. I just remember trying to recreate things i saw in porn videos. i feel like shit. every. single. time. i see either one of those cousins. I have never mentioned this in therapy. should i?
- xoxo,
Computah