Formalities aside, Next time you see me I hope you say hello Ask me how I’ve been I’d say good And then i’d look you in the eye
And hope that you’d know That I want you I want you to finally
Just kiss me Just do it So we don’t have to pretend anymore So we don’t have to imagine The taste Of eachothers tongues
Kiss me, don’t make me beg Just kiss me You can
There’s a part of me that feels like I shouldn’t be saying this. That it’s premature. But life is just too short to hold grudges.
I forgive you for all. I forgive you for the ways that you have hurt me. Intentional and Unintentional. I forgive you for words said, said by you, that even you may not have known the weight of their meaning.
Of course there is more depth, to the words that I wish to say. For the forgiveness that is in my heart. But obviously those words must only be exchanged between you and I.
One day we may talk. If life allows, but probably not. I have to continue to move on, for myself. I will. And you have already shown, many times, that I hold no importance in your life. But if you ever wondered even in passing how I feel? I’d want you to know that I forgive.
Seems like we’re synched up
Clouds heavy
Pouring with rain
But baby have you ever danced
As the world cried on you
In pain?
Well I have
And at first it’s awkward
It’s silly
You might slip
But then
You start to realize
That the ocean
Made a trip
To see you
To give you a kiss
It just wanted to say hello
And when it’s over
You carry on
You continue the show
Life is still the same
As if you never danced
But the difference is
You’re happier
Because you gave the ocean
A chance
cue upside down spider-man kissing scene in the rain
Loving you feels just like breathing. It really really does. Never met someone that gave me so much life. Effortlessly. Don’t ever question yourself. Don’t ever feel the need to hide. To shrink. Don’t ever question your worth. I promise to love you steadily. Not too close, but not too far. Right by your side. Elbow hugs. And kisses. On the lips. Noggin bumps. High fives. Stolen glances. And bad dances. Through the seasons, through the storms. I’ll love you. In the snow and the rain. From the river, to the waterfall. I love you just as you are.
we just make love once more? i yearn and ache to be held by you. even if it’s only one more time. sad times man. sad. sad. times. i’ll never find another that does it the way that you do. imy boop.
really wish more people either read or atleast knew the four agreements. Such a great cheat code to life. I’m sure the bible even has them. In even more detail than the book. But you know the bible is one of the last things, that many people especially christian’s will actually. read. I actually loled at that one. It’s exhausting how many people are unable to read. To read and comprehend. But hey. Can’t make someone who is unwilling, ever understand. They’ll never understand my truth. And unfortunately theirs too. But the good news is that their misery will always be in their misunderstanding. Of others. Of the world. Of themselves.
Day shift on this app is so booooringgg. yawn yawn yawn. Ugh. Spare meeee. Oh also fuck. I just wanted to say that word because I like to say it. And i’m also not afraid to. So… fuck. I do happen to cuss a little. But just a little… Bc one of the agreements is to be impeccable with your word. Not perfect. But impeccable. Meaning to only say things you really mean. Things that represent your character. And that you wouldn’t mind being attached to your name. Anywhooop boop!
not be mad that you underestimated me and I fucking dunked on you. It is embarrassing indeed. Just move forward.
Unless you would like to try it again…
You know how these things go.
Misery looooooves company
and I happen to live
alone
It’s you that I want In the most quiet and gentle ways I want you like how it was in the beginning Maybe let’s not try to recreate that If we are able to evolve together I think that love will expand
The arms length distance is double. We once were together hand in hand side by side but we didn’t let eachother feel and we both stiff armed eachother
That tension could cut a knife you know
But I want you to do the honors
I want you to want to do it
Because you already know
that I will
These letters stand for… i’ll tell you in the letter. You have to read it. Sorry.
I am not a victim, I never was so fear not and do not pity me!
Everything that has transpired is simply the result of my own actions
it’s crazy how it all blew up in our faces isn’t it. We got to watch it, and live it together. On the same timeline in the same place With everybody watching It became a game, a joke of sorts some type of capture the flag Or like some super low budget reality TV
But it just got way out of hand and you know that
I waved the white flag when I told u…
Luke Combs
Hot moms
We were young and dumb I guess
But you know… you always made me laugh right? That was the thing about you that no one else could do. Was make me laugh the way you did. Once I was somewhere and this guy (nothing like that, just our waiter) thought I was drunk. But I wasn’t. It was just you.
——
And when I went back to your home, I saw that you had eloped
And oddly enough
U know what I did?
I laughed. Not out of spite or malice but because I finally could like old times
I finally could just laugh about it all and that’s when I knew I had healed
And when I went to that place it all made sense
And that was my closure. Being in the place that shaped you into who you are. Because when I went
Everything just made sense
So this is my pumpkin pie apology
And I promise im who I am today only for me and for no one else.
I hope that you take your own advice
Many things are better left unsaid
And I apologize for saying them
only reached out to tell you the truth just incase you read these. Because this shit is comedy. No response necessary. Enjoy the show.
I’ve always wanted to be with someone who I could go to a bad comedy show with
Whoever laughs first loses!
I wanted to say that i’m sorry, and thank you. for hearing me out, for your willingness to open up. to understand me and to move forward. I’m sorry for my mistakes, my shortcomings and for all that i’ve done or maybe didn’t do that has led us to this point.
This doesn’t have to be something that we define right now or ever— i don’t think it would change much.
I’m sorry for the pain that i’ve caused you from my words, my actions or lack thereof. It’s only up from here my friend, and i think we both know that. as much as i wish i could look you in the eye and tell you these things i wont. unless and until you do the same.
i’ll keep moving forward and so will you, and we can only hope that we meet again. and if we don’t i hope that you just know that i’m proud of you. no matter what i just hope you know that im proud.
this is the story of how i knew that i loved you.
my parents were in town visiting and i had planned to show them around. we were going to go to some of my favorite places, do some fun things, take care of business and just enjoy being together. they came in late, too late to do what i had planned and ill be honest i was a bit upset that we had to change the agenda but i knew it was for a reason. and then that reason revealed itself. well my mother revealed it to me. and when she did i immediately thought of you. my heart sank into my stomach when i realized that there was a chance, that id never see you again. that we’d end off on that note and that was the end. because i knew that wasn’t our end. i went to war with myself deciding if i should check in, but i figured you’d be angry. annoyed. that you wouldn’t care. i thought that if i reached out you’d think my words were said in vain. and so i chose to stay silent. every single hour i refreshed every news outlet, every source that i knew, that i even had access to just to make sure that your name, your description was no where to be found. and i continued to do so until they were all identified. my heart was heavy with so many emotions, grief, sadness, shock, relief, and longing. but i couldn’t do anything with these feelings because i convinced myself that it wasn’t my problem. that it didn’t concern me. you were on my mind every single day (i mean you still are) since then, and as more time had passed i realized why i felt so deeply about it, about you. the same reason why im here today spilling my emotions out to this void. it’s because i realized that i love you. and i struggle to say that, those three words, to your face, only from my fear. my silence wasn’t indifference, it was respect. i wanted to give you room to process what happened and to heal. i was certain you had friends, acquaintances, peers, who were affected in ways beyond my understanding and so i chose to not burden you with my worry. to not use what happened as a way to get back into your life when it was clear that door was closed. i love you not for who you will become, not for what you have, not even for what you do (u know… to me) but for who you are. today. i love you for who you are. the man that you are now who was once the kid that was confused, brought into this world with challenges, dealt a hand so rare that only he could be smart enough to play, and win with. you bring me peace. you have a warmth. but also an edge that i fucking love. and you’re perfect to me. i remember when i met you i realized why He made me wait so long, so long to finally meet my person. because my person would be exceptional, full of love, full of life, with the capacity to handle me. and for that to even be possible it needed time to unfold. i remember as i was falling for you, my world actualized. and i remember thinking, if this is the one, it was worth all of the pain, from the past. from those who looked at me but did not see me. the pain from those who spoke to me but did not listen. the pain from not choosing myself. and so as we continue on this journey i want you to know that that flame is eternal. something that will burn beyond our years, but not to destruct, not to incite fear but to guide. as a light in the dark, a symbol of hope in the pain. a resemblance of truth and authenticity in a cold world that is cruel, and unforgiving. i promise to love you even if this journey looks differently than what we may want, what we may hope. but the flame, it will always be there. it’s indistinguishable. it burns even on the deepest of oceans. so whether you see this or not. i put this out there so you can know. that i did i will and i do, love you to eternity. to infinity and beyond.
my hand while i tell you this, figuratively ofc
this one’s not much of a letter just a string of thoughts that i need to get to you;
i’m sorry about the last few days all the confusion and games. bc i don’t play games but that don’t mean im not good. theres always a dawg within the cat and a cat within the dawg but it doesn’t come out unless it has to. i guess as you can see.
what you’ve seen lately is the dawg thats always been there, the one that doesnt bark, doesnt whine or cry but is still there just watching. silently. just incase it needs to attack.
this dawg runs alone but it doesn’t mean it doesnt have a pack. one that is watching. one that shows up. one that understands. when no one else does. when no one else can
so take this as my apology, well an apology one of many for the past bc i promise if we can work together we’ll make this something that lasts
i need to heal from some things some that i guess we both know about. some things that i can see and you don’t. or maybe vice versa. probably more of the latter.
but however it may seem rn, i just want u to know that my love is/was/and will always be real.
-
u do your best work, when you are focused. not when you are sleep deprived, in a hurry, etc etc.
so work within the lines and boundaries yes but still just take ur time
time is not of the essence rn
atleast regarding this situation
we have the rest of our lives…
i see how my communication style can be confusing. and i’m sorry about that, i’ve never really had anything like this before. a relationship that is; i’ve never been in one. ever. cats out of the bag. no one has ever asked me to be theirs, and i’ve never considered anyone as solely mine. sooo there’s a lot that i don’t know about all of this. the “how”. and ill need you to teach me.
another thing is that my phone genuinely is a brick. i have to delete random stuff every single day just to have enough storage to use it for nececities. as in u know work and stuff. so that’s why i spend my time on this god awful cathartic app, writing, reading, stewing, and expressing myself. because it doesn’t take up any space.
i really need a new phone and i hope that i am able to get one this summer; but as with most things… im in no hurry. lol. but yeah good this maybe helps the way you see me? even if it’s just a little.
three words.
eight letters.
yup.
I had a plan in mind but it seems like we might not be seeing eachother after all. especially if you are leaving tomorrow.
Just know i’ll be where you are (rn) this weekend wishing you were there so that we could just hang out maybe chill have some lunch or whatever and a little fun.
But, it’s looking like it’ll be a solo trip. I’ll still reach out to u (not sure when tbh and i don’t want to say something and not follow through) just incase i am misunderstanding or misreading all of the bs on here but i hope you know how much i love you. How much i really did love spending time with you.
Because when i was with you, my soul was at rest.
Not sure how long it will be before we can patch this all up, that is the misunderstandings, the unspoken feelings, the miscommunication even? But just know that my heart fucking bleeds for you and it did this whole time. It was always you. And it always will be. Because as i said in one of these earlier; if it’s not you. It’s no one. And it never will be.
So I hope that you understand where i’m coming from. I’m sorry for everything and every way i’ve made you feel small. I hope that you’ve seen my truth over these last couple of days because the walls go back up on day 3. But it seems like you will be gone as well.
So we’ll see. But regardless,
I love you (____)
-me
dear people,
some of u on here are dtm… trying to pry and read into relationships that aren’t yours and just being a bunch of nosey ninjas. and don’t get me wrong it’s funny and what not but like dont be a shit starter yk. stay in your lane pls. it’s also more annoying than funny btw. the humor of it is the way you think ur actually doin sum.
regards,
moi
i wanted something that would last between us. like actually last.
possibly forever
and even having someone like you, finally finding someone that made me feel like that meant that all that i went through was worth something.
and that something would have been you.
and so if it didn’t work out, especially with the complexity of my life, if it didn’t work out—-
i told myself that i’d make sure to never love again