u/Hot_Weather_9247

Hi, I want to share my story and the philosophy I developed to keep going when consciousness feels like a heavy burden.

I have always felt that we are basically nothing, like bacteria living in the sewers of a massive city. I believe in absolute nihilism, nothingness is my origin, and to it I will return. I didn't ask to come here, and if I had been given the choice before birth, I would have refused this unfair contract. To me, "consciousness" itself is not a gift, but rather a tragic mutation and a heavy curse that makes us realize the misery and absurdity of reality.

Because of this, I once reached the edge of the abyss, lost all justification to stay, and decided to end my life. But I decided to play my last card, experimenting with drugs. There, specifically with the drug Ecstasy, the cycle of despair was broken. The drug didn't create a new reality, but it revealed a "window" to me, it showed me that life has a beautiful face that can be enjoyed, exactly as depression had previously revealed its misery and tragedy. If it weren't for this experience, I would have ended my life early.

Since I was thrown into this existence against my will, I created my own rule for survival "reduce suffering and intelligently extract happiness". I practice a philosophy of careful enjoyment and harm reduction by using substances that suit me (like Cannabis, LSD, and MDMA) smartly, alongside supporting medications and rest periods, to extract every possible drop of happiness with the least damage. These "calculated chemical rewards" are what give me the reason and the fuel to fight and battle the daily tragedy of life. As long as my equation (Pleasure > Pain) continues, I do not want to return to nothingness at all. And if this equation were to fail due to an overwhelming circumstance outside my control, I might return to my decision to leave.

Despite my belief in the nihilism of existence, I have an extreme sensitivity to pain. I feel pity for all living creatures that share this curse with me. I still remember my deep sadness over a spider I killed one day at work, it pained me that I caused it ache. My moral philosophy boils down to not increasing the pain of the world, but rather reducing suffering as much as possible, for myself and others. Shared suffering makes me empathize with everything that possesses consciousness.

Despite the harshness and absolute absurdity of life, I sometimes consider myself lucky to have had the chance to experience this consciousness and these feelings. I have realized a great secret: life is extremely precious precisely because every passing second and every breath that goes out never returns. The transience of things is what gives them their value. I wish life were a paradise without pain, but since it isn't, I squeeze the moment because it will not repeat.

I live my daily life normally, I listen to music, go out with my friends, and play video games, but there is always an internal "voice" that never goes silent. It is my acute consciousness that watches me, analyzes everything, and constantly wonders about the secret of life. This continuous thinking is a very heavy guest that I sometimes wish to get rid of to live with the naivety of the rest, but in the end, it is "me".

I am not just someone escaping from reality, but an "experimenter" and a philosopher who refuses voluntary blindness. I am fully aware that I am just a passageway through which the days cross, but I have decided to be the leader of this passageway. I will continue to explore my consciousness, deconstructing the universe around me through different chemical lenses, enjoying the absurdity of this play until the curtain falls.

I'm posting this because I’ve reached my breaking point with Meta’s OS updates. The hardware is great, but the software updates are an absolute nightmare.

Knowing how buggy recent updates have been, I specifically DISABLED auto-updates in the settings. Despite that, my headset decided to completely ignore my preference and forced an update anyway.

Now, I'm stuck with a ridiculous and frustrating bug. Whenever I use a sideloaded/third-party browser (like Edge) and try to play a video, the video playback completely freezes. The ONLY way the video plays is if I mute the audio! As soon as I unmute, the video freezes again.

Just to clarify:

I am using the built-in headset speakers (NO Bluetooth headphones connected).

There are no other background apps running or hijacking the audio focus.

I've tried hard rebooting, but the issue persists.

Since Meta doesn't allow us to downgrade the OS, I'm just stuck with a broken browser experience. Why does every update fix one thing and break 10 others? And what is the point of the "disable auto-update" toggle if the headset just ignores it?

Is anyone else experiencing this specific audio/video freeze bug? Any workarounds besides a factory reset? Because I hate the default browser even tho it works fine, Thanks!

I'm posting this because I’ve reached my breaking point with Meta’s OS updates. The hardware is great, but the software updates are an absolute nightmare.

Knowing how buggy recent updates have been, I specifically DISABLED auto-updates in the settings. Despite that, my headset decided to completely ignore my preference and forced an update anyway.

Now, I'm stuck with a ridiculous and frustrating bug. Whenever I use a sideloaded/third-party browser (like Edge) and try to play a video, the video playback completely freezes. The ONLY way the video plays is if I mute the audio! As soon as I unmute, the video freezes again.

Just to clarify:

I am using the built-in headset speakers (NO Bluetooth headphones connected).

There are no other background apps running or hijacking the audio focus.

I've tried hard rebooting, but the issue persists.

Since Meta doesn't allow us to downgrade the OS, I'm just stuck with a broken browser experience. Why does every update fix one thing and break 10 others? And what is the point of the "disable auto-update" toggle if the headset just ignores it?

Is anyone else experiencing this specific audio/video freeze bug? Any workarounds besides a factory reset? Because I hate the default browser even tho it works, Thanks!

Hi everyone, I really need some advice because I’m dealing with some severe buyer's remorse and fear of hearing damage.

My current setup:

Beyerdynamic DT 1990 Pro MK2 (30 ohms)

iFi Zen DAC V3

Playing from my Android phone (I have root and I stop useing Viper4Android)

Genres: Exclusively EDM, Trance, and Progressive House.

I bought the DT 1990s for their wide soundstage and 8-hour comfort (velour pads). But I realized I bought a "studio microscope" instead of a fun "club headphone."

When I listen at a safe volume (9-10 o'clock on the DAC), the sound lacks fullness and physical bass slam. When I push the volume to 12 or 1 o'clock to get that sub-bass satisfaction and fullness, the Beyerdynamic treble peak absolutely pierces my eardrums. I had to stop listening for two days because of physical ear fatigue and pain.

I usually listen during long relaxation sessions at home (sometimes involving substances like weed or MDMA). During these sessions, I crave that physical "chest-thumping" bass, and my pain tolerance is masked/lowered. I am terrified of accidentally blowing out my eardrums or getting permanent tinnitus because the DT 1990's treble is too sharp at the volume I need to feel the bass.

I am 100% willing to sacrifice open-back breathability. I don't care if my ears get a bit warm or sweaty with leather pads, I just want the ultimate EDM experience. I need:

Massive physical bass slam (Sub-bass that you can feel).

Thick, warm, and dark sound signature.

ZERO treble fatigue or piercing highs (so I can raise the volume slightly without getting stabbed in the ears).

Budget: Up to $1000.

Should I look into closed-backs like Fostex/Meze, or a warm planar like the Audeze LCD-2 Classic? What is the ultimate EDM headphone that won't ruin my hearing with sharp treble?

Thanks in advance!

Hi All, so today I want to share my story and the philosophy I developed to keep going when consciousness feels like a heavy burden.

I have always felt that we are basically nothing, like bacteria living in the sewers of a massive city. I believe in absolute nihilism, nothingness is my origin, and to it I will return. I didn't ask to come here, and if I had been given the choice before birth, I would have refused this unfair contract. To me, "consciousness" itself is not a gift, but rather a tragic mutation and a heavy curse that makes us realize the misery and absurdity of reality.

Because of this, I once reached the edge of the abyss, lost all justification to stay, and decided to end my life. But I decided to play my last card, experimenting with drugs. There, specifically with the drug Ecstasy, the cycle of despair was broken. The drug didn't create a new reality, but it revealed a "window" to me, it showed me that life has a beautiful face that can be enjoyed, exactly as depression had previously revealed its misery and tragedy. If it weren't for this experience, I would have ended my life early.

Since I was thrown into this existence against my will, I created my own rule for survival "reduce suffering and intelligently extract happiness". I practice a philosophy of careful enjoyment and harm reduction by using substances that suit me (like Cannabis, LSD, and MDMA) smartly, alongside supporting medications and rest periods, to extract every possible drop of happiness with the least damage. These "calculated chemical rewards" are what give me the reason and the fuel to fight and battle the daily tragedy of life. As long as my equation (Pleasure > Pain) continues, I do not want to return to nothingness at all. And if this equation were to fail due to an overwhelming circumstance outside my control, I might return to my decision to leave.

Despite my belief in the nihilism of existence, I have an extreme sensitivity to pain. I feel pity for all living creatures that share this curse with me. I still remember my deep sadness over a spider I killed one day at work, it pained me that I caused it ache. My moral philosophy boils down to not increasing the pain of the world, but rather reducing suffering as much as possible, for myself and others. Shared suffering makes me empathize with everything that possesses consciousness.

Despite the harshness and absolute absurdity of life, I sometimes consider myself lucky to have had the chance to experience this consciousness and these feelings. I have realized a great secret: life is extremely precious precisely because every passing second and every breath that goes out never returns. The transience of things is what gives them their value. I wish life were a paradise without pain, but since it isn't, I squeeze the moment because it will not repeat.

I live my daily life normally, I listen to music, go out with my friends, and play video games, but there is always an internal "voice" that never goes silent. It is my acute consciousness that watches me, analyzes everything, and constantly wonders about the secret of life. This continuous thinking is a very heavy guest that I sometimes wish to get rid of to live with the naivety of the rest, but in the end, it is "me".

I am not just someone escaping from reality, but an "experimenter" and a philosopher who refuses voluntary blindness. I am fully aware that I am just a passageway through which the days cross, but I have decided to be the leader of this passageway. I will continue to explore my consciousness, deconstructing the universe around me through different chemical lenses, enjoying the absurdity of this play until the curtain falls.