u/Hour_Housing5886

Hi guys, I’m trying to rebuilt my life again and i was hoping since i rediscovered my old hobby which is doing art,

To be honest, the problem right now is i have so many interest in art,

I remember being a child i always love cartoons and does roleplaying with my toys and even tried voice acting them (i find it cool that i had those tendencies back then) (i like voice acting) (and drawing art for scenarios that i have in my imaginations)

And sometimes i imagine them through songs as well (i also would like to learn about writing songs, though with my lacking of people with feedback, i am not sure to be confident about my writing)

Its simple but, without a community or people who could help me learn through with it, i would like to ask how and where should i go and im hoping its the right people)) and I look forward to reconnect with people even when unprepared so i could learn things the hard way too)

After my mother died, I didnt went spiral for 4 months until my so-called-family started going against me because at the root of the cause,

“I just needed a space…”

I have a home but one day I went to a family’s house and reflected at the mirror crying yearning for my mother’s presence

Then suddenly when that family member noticed I’m being quiet…

They started assuming I’m stabbing them behind the back cause apparently filipino families are becoming more pathologically concerning,

Saying things like they’re depressed and if im being quiet I should be direct and honest since “madali lang naman ako kausap” (while at the tone of not wanting me anymore in the house)

It’s been two months…

I’m slowly entering serious mental health concern,

I am 20 years old, woman… almost at the point of selling my body if I cant hold it anymore

I have not enough money, my home looks trash, I have no family anymore, almost normally questioning myself if I should just, die now