u/Human-Repair-3732

I'm currently in my third year of B Tech in tier 2 IIT, studying CSE with decent cpi.

I wasted my first year being in love and sometimes being depressed.

I used to live constantly in fear because I tied my happiness to some other person.

Then in second year I decided to block her and start my life, at that time I even started preparing for interns in the third year since a good intern and good PPO means life is set.

My second year was great but I hoped my third year would be better because I would be free with an intern.

I completely moved on in my second year and made great friends and I became less emotional.

Now after so much effort I lost many intern interviews and now my career is in doubt while my family had expectations from me.

Now I got faced with a real problem and now I have a situation of being really afraid.

At this point all those feelings I had back then don't matter to me.

I regret losing my first year.

Fighting for someone you love is more significant than fighting for someone's love.

I'm currently in my third year of B Tech in tier 2 IIT, studying CSE with decent cpi.

I wasted my first year being in love and sometimes being depressed.

I used to live constantly in fear because I tied my happiness to some other person.

Then in second year I decided to block her and start my life, at that time I even started preparing for interns in the third year since a good intern and good PPO means life is set.

My second year was great but I hoped my third year would be better because I would be free with an intern.

I completely moved on in my second year and made great friends and I became less emotional.

Now after so much effort I lost many intern interviews and now my career is in doubt while my family had expectations from me.

Now I got faced with a real problem and now I have a situation of being really afraid.

At this point all those feelings I had back then don't matter to me.

I regret losing my first year.

Fighting for someone you love is more significant than fighting for someone's love.

Now I'm in my third year in tier 2 IIT in CSE

I got shortlisted for 5 interviews of big companies but got rejected for all, some are my skill issues others I don't know

I got shortlisted for this Goldman Sachs intern, I finished all 3 rounds quickly and they went very well, that was my lucky day but then I also had Salesforce interview on the same day, then GS HR asked who has Salesforce interviews so I informed them, and she told me to go

Then I ruined my Salesforce interview due to exhaustion, I didn't eat breakfast or lunch and waited for 3 hours after completing my 3 rounds at GS, and I thought I got GS and ruined interview

I heard two rejections in 1 minute

Then I lost some other interviews which was my lack of DSA

But later I'm not getting shortlisted for other companies and now there are less companies left

Atp idk what to do and I'm blindly continuing my grind, I may get the next interview or I may not even get intern