u/Humble_Ad2508

oh how I wish I was a “normal” teen, by did I have to do it? Now I have to live with these scars, small insignificant ugly scars that will be with me until my body rots when I die.

my friends didn’t do it, why did I?

im so fucking pathetic

i swear I just tried it out because I was in a bad mental state

damn it im normal right?

im still just a dumb teen who made a dumb mistake…

just a mistake..

my older sister didn’t do it

my mom didnt do it

my dad didn’t do it

i did it

me

why did I have to be this way

I only did it once yet I’m still the odd one out

nothing fucking bad was happening to me

I was just a pathetic little crybaby who couldn’t hold in there feeligns

i cant love myself with this stupid scars

I wish I did it on my butt so I didn’t have to look at them

i didn’t meant to do it I didn’t intend to

i was caught in the moment

holy chud vent

it doesn’t count as sh right, so I’m normal right??

last year, I hurt myself after getting overwhelmed. I was already hurting myself with a pencil but they weren’t big. That day, both my grandma (who was with us) and my sister were ganging up on me. I wish i used my pencil, but that day I had small pink scissors, and with them, I waited till everyone was asleep and cut myself. I feel pathetic now, I haven’t touched them yet I feel disgusting, I have to wake up and look at the small scratches every day, knowing not many people do it, and that I hurt myself over something so dumb, that I ruined my body just because of a little pressure. I hate it so much I hate the scars I wish they weren’t there. I mean, EVERY teen hurts themself once in their life time right? I’m normal right??

And only my oldest sister and the 2nd oldest (who ganged up on me) know

…

I hate myself for these scars, I wish I was gone 🥹✌️

I self harmed in June of last year, and as a result, I’ve never self harmed again and I hate myself for doing it. Seriously, the scars are small and no one notices but me; I wish I never hurt myself, i wish my body was “clean“ you can say. is there any idea on how to come to terms with the fact I’ve had, and how to make them so faint I can’t see them anymore? (the scars i have are a light brown and I’m a bit lighter than it. you can only see 3~ if you look closely)

the Heian era fascinates me alot. I don’t study history a lot though so I was wondering if you guys have any trustable links on how life in the heian era was like for both women and men. (Sorry if this is low effort 😞 )