u/I_Eat_Mold_UwU

I don't really have a lot to say for this post but basically today i shaved my whole body and once i looked at myself in the mirror and saw my unshaven penis i went: "EW WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT". Surprisingly though, when i was still hairy down there i didn't feel as much bottom dysphoria; is this something normal?

A couple days ago me and my dad had a discussion regarding me wanting to take HRT but he doesn't want me to do that because he fears that i'll regret it in the future.

He said that if i take hormones and regret it the effects will be unreversible and that i'll blame him and my mom for letting me "ruin my life" (keep in mind that i'm a teen so i need my parents' approval for this stuff).

When i said to him that i'm sure about this he said that i'm only saying that because i'm an hormonial teenager and that i don't know what i'll think in 10 years(which annoyed me because i felt like he was looking down at me, assuming i can't make any decision for myself just because of my age). He then compared our situations by saying that in his youth he was a delinquent who surrounded himself with bad people and that he thought he was gonna die before 30 before putting in hard effort to turn his life around (he is turning 56 this year).

When i added that i want to take HRT ASAP in fear of becoming more masculine by the time i turn 18, he said that i can only get more masculine by going to the gym (which is not even true).

I don't really remember this part clearly so it may be a bit jumbled up, but he basically said that me wanting a woman's body is a whim and compared my need to him wanting a Ferrari (saying that i should just deal with it and keep my male body; only problem is that HRT is actually much more affordable than a Ferrari).

I have my first ever endocrynologist appointment to start my journey next Wednesday and i'm afraid of him messing everything up... (I already know that i have to go see a therapist to make sure that i am really sure of wanting this but i am still anxious that because of him my access to HRT will be delayed).

Imagine watching tons of horror movies or, better yet, analog horror videos/creepypasta videos/horror game videos on Youtube on a thunderstormy night while you and your date are on the couch in your PJs covered by fluffy blankets while eating tasty snackies and cuddling!!! Bonus points if one gets hyperscared and buries their face into the other's chest/shoulder while also clinging to them like a scared child does with her mother!!!

Imagine watching tons of horror movies or, better yet, analog horror videos/creepypasta videos/horror game videos on Youtube on a thunderstormy night while you and your date are on the couch in your PJs covered by fluffy blankets while eating tasty snackies and cuddling!!! Bonus points if one gets hyperscared and buries their face into her chest/shoulder while also clinging to them like a scared child does with her mother!!!

What you need is my Stand "The World".

What you can find beyond the powers of my Stand is where you need to go in order to find Heaven. What you need is a trustworthy friend. He must be someone capable of controlling his own desires. He must be someone who is not interested in political power, fame, wealth, or sexual desire, and who chooses the will of God before the law of humans.

Will I, DIO, be able to meet someone like this one day?

What I also need is the lives of more than 36 humans who have sinned, because those who have sinned harbor a strong power within.

There are 14 phrases that one must keep in mind:

Spiral staircase

Rhinoceros beetle

Desolation Row

Fig tart

Rhinoceros beetle

Via Dolorosa

Rhinoceros beetle

Singularity point

Giotto

Angel

Hydrangea

Rhinoceros beetle

Singularity point

Secret emperor

I'll engrave these words onto my Stand so I won't forget them. What is most necessary is "courage"; I must have the courage to destroy my Stand momentarily. As it disintegrates, my Stand will absorb the souls of the 36 sinners and will give birth to something utterly new.

Whatever is born will "awaken". It will show interest in the 14 phrases that my trusted friend will utter... My friend will trust me and I will become his "friend".

Lastly, I need an appropriate location.

North latitude, 28 degrees, 24 minutes, West longitude 80 degrees, 36 minutes...

Go there and wait for the New Moon...

That's when Heaven will come.

Thanks to a comment i made on one of the posts of this sub i was able to find myself an absolutely adorable online gf. So i just wanted to say thanks :)

For context, when i had this dream i hadn't fully finished reading volume 11. Basically today i dreamt Denji being at a train station walking towards a train and once he got seated Power (in her Blood Devil from) materialized presumably from her blood inside Denji's body to then sit on his lap in a "cat loaf" position; Power looked pretty happy doing this and was also purring. After that i woke up to go to school :(