u/Ill-Strawberry1400

All this time I could have swore you where with me in feeling like we found each other again. In feeling the universe had given us a second chance and maybe it was our time. Everything you said lead me to that, moments shared… I told you don’t kiss me cause I would be filled with hope for the future. Our future. You kissed me anyway. But now here I am alone with the ghost of your memory wishing for your voice, your laugh. Everyone says it was real that maybe we are both giving each other space that we think we want. To talk to you. All I think now is that I was alone. Alone in all the beautiful moments, alone in feeling at home. We where nothing in the end. Another miss, but I miss you like something that was.

We meet in my first year of highschool. Dated shortly in the innocent way you do with your first Bf. Knowing nothing really. After we broke up we remained very good friends for the next 15 years or so. As we aged and life pulled us apart we drifted. We have recently reconnected and I see him in a romantic light that hasn’t been this strong since the first time we dated. Granted through out friendship there where times when I would feel jealous of his gfs or wish life had worked maybe a little differently but it was never an option and the moment passed quickly.

Now we are adults have are both single and have been kissing and such as two willing adults. However I also wanna put it out there that I want more. So the question is do I risk the feud ship having just reconnecting specially since we already kissed and crossed some boundaries? Or do I try to bury my feelings?

TL:DR - after reconnecting with a long term friend I wonder if it would be wise to tell him I want more than a friendship.