Adult autism testing when you've been masking so long you're not sure what unmasked even looks like anymore
I don't know if this is a common experience or just mine but I've been masking since early childhood and when I try to picture what my unmasked self actually looks like I genuinely can't get a clear image, because the mask and the person have sort of merged over thirty years and I can't tell where one ends and the other begins
I'm trying to get a formal evaluation and my question is whether this makes the evaluation less reliable, like if I turn up and present as my usual very together masked self will the assessment just see the mask and conclude I'm fine the way every other evaluation has
is there a way to communicate this to an evaluator in advance so they actually know what to look for underneath it, and I'm not asking whether I should get evaluated because I've already decided, I'm asking how to get the most accurate result when the thing that needs evaluating is specifically designed to not be visible