u/ImTooTiredAndOld

I’m a creative writing major with the anticipation to add Computer Science as a minor (I requested and took the Aylek exam ahead of time). I’m 28, love to play Souls video games and make books (literally, making the paper, binding, etc), a sucker for dark humor, and you could catch me doing Yoga by the bluff 🤟🏾🤟🏾

Who else is going? I’m down to making new acquaintances as we all start our new journey here

I said what I said. I hate all scalpers. They take the literal joy out of anything because they want a profit and are making genuine hobbies into something people cannot afford to enjoy at all. Theyre the demons that roam in this hell-like economy

To the scalpers who buy tote bags, Stanley cups, and even fidget toys just to jack up the prices. Each of you are a bunch of fucktards that deserves sugar in your gas tank you low-life shit eating schmucks.

I will dance on the day where everyone wakes up and decide not to buy from you, making each scalper pay all of that money for nothing.

Literal Jack asses. Eat many dicks. I hope people spit on you when they catch you hovering and waiting around the Pokémon machines in the store.

Fuck all of you.

(( NO, I’M NOT PREGNANT))This is completely my fault, and I fully realize now that I simply hate all types of birth control. Why? It messes with my entire autonomy.

If it’s not my mood, it messes with my weight. If not my weight, it messes with my health. If not my health, it messes with my skin. Not just that! Sometimes it’s all of the above!

I’m on my second week on OPill, and it seemed promising after doing research.

But no.

Once the second week hit, the side effects really started coming in. I’m talking headaches, tender nipples that kind of hurt, fatigue, I’m a bit more sensitive emotionally, and worst of all, the sickness I get when I even eat one piece of cake or sweets.

I’m writing this after I threw up 10 minutes ago.

Yes, I contacted and got an appointment to speak to a clinician about this two days ago.

I’m just one of those people that had nausea as a side effect with this specific pill.

They recommended to see how I do if I keep going or to change contraception.

I’m 100% with birth control pills/iuds, ALL OF THEM.

My peace matters and health matters so much more.

And it pisses me off how we go through so much to either be protected or to have lighter periods! Like wtf?! I hate it here!

I never regretted transitioning from F to M (I took T for 8 months only, skip weeks, and too surgery; so I didn’t have a hard transition at all. It was very light).

But that was back in 2019. I fully detransitioned in 2022/2023. I went back to she/her pronouns, I tackled on some heavy trauma after I found the right therapist, and I’ve been living a pretty quiet/peaceful life. But sometimes I still get dysphoria, and I question myself.

I know I’m not a man.
I’m mostly okay with being a woman to some degree.
And I don’t consider myself as both.

When I look at myself, I just don’t see or acknowledge any gender at all. I just go “I’m just me”.

Friends had tried to label me as non-binary, but I rejected it because I believe it’s something I need to figure out on my own for myself, and I came to the conclusion that I might just be Agender.

This whole journey made me realize a lot and even gain an appreciation towards my femininity in ways I didn’t before. I can’t really help my dysphoric feelings with little things, but I think these are just stepping stones to discovering more about myself during this Detransition/Retransition process.

I honestly look like I never transitioned before (minus me not having breasts anymore), but it’s becoming more of just a memory now.

I don’t care much if someone calls me a woman. But I just don’t care for it towards myself.

I think I just feel relieved that I figured it out for myself.

I’m not gonna go back on Testosterone or anything.

I’m just gonna navigate life with a bit more clarity.

So, I’ve done my research as I’m going to transfer over this fall. For those who are in Stem/are a stem major/minor; how difficult was the ALEKS placement exam for you?

I’m currently refreshing my memories in Khan Academy, and I understand the test will include algebra, precal and trig. The last time I was in Precal was 10 years ago, but I’m not threatened off of that.

I want to see how it was for everyone so I can have an idea.