I've seen this sweater every once in awhile (and even got it yesterday!), but I don't remember the words on it ever being in a song. I've listened to all of 3 cheers and didn't hear it, so did I just miss it or is it something else?
So, I know this is messed up and I'll probably get hate, but context for this is sorta important:
Me and my whole friend group make...messed up jokes. Like sh, suicide, etc. (keep in mind, not one person in my friend group hasn't done sh before! we're all survivors which makes it..a little more okayer? idk. and we never joke about anyone whose actually struggling or anything that's ever happened)
And one of my friends, imma call them J, is really depressed. they'll never admit it and they'll never talk to anyone about it, but I know they are. they've been joking about attempting for about the past year, but every time they bring it up, it's always about doing it the same way, on the same date.
and they seem like the type that would actually try, and I'm really scared that they actually are. they're one of my favorite people in the world and I don't know if i can honestly make it through another loss. the day is about 7 months from now, and I'm really scared they'll actually try.
And I'm just wondering: what do I do?
Confronting them won't work. I've already tried, and they left me on read. I tried ensuring that they wouldn't in person, and they brushed it off, and I didn't wanna keep prying.
this has been on my mind literally every day since they first mentioned it, and I just don't know what to do.
Any advice would be really, really appreciated.
So basically:
a lot of people say they've known their whole life, or at least had an idea of it. I've been questioning if I'm trans (ftm) but I have a question about it.
Can you not have felt like the opposite gender your whole life and still be trans, or is there another term for it? When I was younger, I felt comfortable as a girl and identified as one, and only recently have I been feeling like I don't belong in that identity.
I hope this makes sense lol, I suck at putting my ideas into words.
Man idk :(
I just don't have the guts to do it deep enough, no matter how much I feel like I deserve it. i know that so many other people do it worse, even though i know they're way, way better people than me.
i also just..don't have a way to reach out for help. no matter what, my friends will just say im attention seeking, even if it's just telling them i relapsed.
they also always say they read me so well, but they have no clue ive been doing crappy this week. even though i've been irritable this week, they think im just being entitled or smth and doing fine.
they also leave me out. im in a trio, with 2 other best friends who are besties with each other in what's supposed to be an equal friendship- they all say it is. but it's really not- i always get ignored, and walk behind them, and they call and text eachother in chats other than our gc (which they don't do with me) and idk
it feels like nobody would notice if i just left.