u/Independent-Check-42

Please pray for me. I’m in a very dangerous spiritual position.

I just fell for a very deep sexual immorality. I hook up with a transgender and had sex with her (him). I don’t even know what this is, but it’s a mix of many sins, prostitution, homosexuality, transgenderism, lust, fornication and so on.

The biggest problem is not even the sin, but the fact that I can’t repent truly. I know it’s wrong and filthy. I want to stop with this hookers, even more with transgender hookers (that’s even worse).

But despite my mind wanting to stop with that because I know it’s dirty, my heart continues to love it and I can’t feel any regret or sadness anymore.

Actually, falling into this sin was the worst mistake of my life. Not because it’s an unforgivable sin, but because it became a prison to me. A prison that I can’t be free because I’m addicted to it and I don’t feel anything anymore.

The sin became a passion, and this passion created a prison that I can’t break.

I NEED to repent. The things I’ve done are abominable. And I want to hate it and not love it. Please pray for me.

Or at least think on detransitioning? I’d like to know what makes you think that way and feel the desire to go back to the original gender.

It’s been a while since I commented here so I’ll give you context again.

Last year I was very away from God and I permitted myself (maybe the worst thing that I have done with me and my faith) to have sex with a prostitute.

Then, after some experiences with prostitutes, that I really didn’t enjoy, I searched for transgender prostitutes. That’s because I was watching some transgender porn. And as I was far away from God, I didn’t have that thing that blocks you from sinning. And I just went. Worst thing of my life, not because it was bad, but because my flesh liked.

Just to give context, last year I was totally certain God had forsaken me and abandoned me. So I just decided to live my life on my own.

Then I had these experiences. I become pretty much addicted to sodomy. Like that was the only thing that was in my mind when I thought about sex.

I know most Christians think in terms of male and female marriage. I was not only not waiting for marriage, but having sex with prostitutes and not only that, but even worse, with men that portrait themselves as women.

After some things I realized that God had not abandoned me. What happened to me was just “life being life”. Then I started to stop hating God and started to feel ashamed about the things I was doing.

Now, I see pretty clear that sex with transgenders is very evil. Not only that, sex without the covenant of marriage is evil too.

I feel ashamed and dirty for that. The problem is, besides feeling that’s wrong, my flesh “learned to like it” and now I can’t stop desiring it.

Pretty miserable situation. I even talk to a transgender person (male that turned into a female) that we had dated, and at the same time I feel ashamed and I want salvation for her, I also feel a burning desire to get laid with her.

I don’t wanna feel dirty with all this filth again. And at the same time I want so bad to sin. That’s so awful.

Please pray for me and give me some advice on how to overcome this filthy desire, because it governs my mind

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Hello! I’m a Brazillian man going to Russia to, sincerely, find my wife. I’m in love with Russian culture and values and I find Russian woman the most beautiful in the world.

Any tips to find my wife there? What do Russians girls like?

Do they get impressed by what?

I like to do business, hit the gym and learn about everything (read a lot). Is it something the Russians care about?

Please, any tips for helping me find my future wife will be welcomed. (I’m going to Moscow primarily).

Hello! I’m a Brazillian man going to Russia to, sincerely, find my wife. I’m in love with Russian culture and values and I find Russian woman the most beautiful in the world.

Any tips to find my wife there? What do Russians girls like?

Do they get impressed by what?

I like to do business, hit the gym and learn about everything (read a lot). Is it something the Russians care about?

Please, any tips for helping me find my future wife will be welcomed. (I’m going to Moscow primarily).

Hello! I’m a Brazillian man going to Russia to, sincerely, find my wife. I’m in love with Russian culture and values and I find Russian woman the most beautiful in the world.

Any tips to find my wife there? What do Russians girls like?

Do they get impressed by what?

I like to do business, hit the gym and learn about everything (read a lot). Is it something the Russians care about?

Please, any tips for helping me find my future wife will be welcomed. (I’m going to Moscow primarily).

Guys, I got a really big problem.

I knew a girl, she is perfect in my eyes, super feminine, and I really liked her. But she is trans (were a boy and now is a girl).

The problem is I was raised in the church and I always saw this as against Gods creation. If he created her as a woman, is seems I’m doing wrong in perpetrating the change of her gender.

Of course she was already trans, but I feel like I’m being complacent with this.

I have so much respect and love for her, not sexually, but as a person and a creation of God. So I’ll never disrespect her, you can be sure of that.

But I’m facing a really huge problem with my conscience. Whatever we do we must do with all our hearts. And I feel my heart is divided. I feel like I need to choose between her and all the beliefs I’ve always had. I mean, to be with her I’ll have to be able to be able to give up all the teachings I’ve received.

The problem is I’m not so sure they are right. I really don’t know if God sees her as a girl or a boy. Maybe he sees her as a soul. But then, why did he created man AND woman and told it was good? Maybe if it’s only man or only woman it won’t be good.

I’m facing a lot of doubts right now and I ask you not only for advice, but prayer for spiritual discernment.

Please don’t come up with religious stuff. Jesus is not religion, he’s the base of reality, the existence itself.

I don’t care about what religion thinks, I care about what Jesus thinks.

And I’d like to know what he thinks about this. And if it’s wrong, why.

Thank you guys 🙏🏼