u/Independent_Crazy683

I know you're cheating because I did put a tracker in your car. It's been there for months. Oopsy!!

I know I've been quiet for too long. I want to tell you why. I think if I put it out there in writing, you would lead me on just to break my heart. I think you still have negative feelings about me, and I realize I should have never found you again after all those years. It was selfish of me and I didn't even think how you would feel or be affected by it.

Also, I've now realized you didn't view the relationship the same way I did. I saw you as the loml, and I think you maybe viewed me as a rebound or just not that important. Finding you again was selfish of me.

I think about you every day. Not all day, but every day you come to mind at some point. You live there and I'm ok with that. I've tried to understand these feelings and why they've stayed so strong after all these years, but there is no logic to it.

So now the actual point of this letter. I've seen letters that could be you and being upset that I disappeared after expressing how I still feel about you. If you wrote any of those and are sincere, I am so sorry. I thought your goal was to trick me and lead me on just to break my heart. But I couldn't stay quiet anymore in case those whispers were not true.

I've also been made aware that I should reach out first. This is me doing that. My silence had nothing to do with my feelings for you. I still think you're the loml even if I'm not yours and would leave my little life to follow you anywhere. I hope you're doing well and your health is good. Maybe we could get some coffee or take a walk in a cemetery sometime. Once again, I'm so sorry for everything.

You really let me down yesterday. I needed you. You know I don't ask for much and you still let me down. I'm always there for you, though. Our relationship revolves around you. I don't tell you half the things going on with me because there isn't room for my problems in this relationship. I'm just so hurt you ignored me all day knowing what I was going through. That shows me how selfish you really are.

The other stuff I tried to talk to you about, the night before, I don't think you really get it. I'll just lay it out. You don't put any effort into us anymore. Everyone else gets the best of you and I get what's leftover. I'm just now beginning to see how much you really don't care about me/us.

You think by ignoring me, it's going to make me want you more? No, not this time. It's showing me how unreliable and selfish you are. Or you think ignoring me is going to teach me a lesson or make me want you more? It isn't, it's showing me that you are only out for you. The first sign of an argument and you shut down. But I'm the runner? No, I leave sometimes to protect myself. You literally drain me and don't return what I give to you. So I have to leave to help myself, to give to myself. I have to recharge myself.

So keep ignoring me, thats ok. You've already shown your true colors.