u/Independent_Room_533

36 male. I've had alot of issues for awhile. I was married twice in my hometown. Both shouldn't have happened and I was desperate, co dependent really. The last marriage really screwed me up. I'm not very trusting in people anymore. I don't know if it's really a good thing or bad thing. I have learned, as much as it sucks. To not tolerate abuse and deal breakers just to not be alone. I mean i understand everybody has issues. But, cheating, substance abuse and criminal behavior are kinda my deal breakers. I mean im personable sometimes and people seem to like me. But, I attract the "bad eggs". Not trying to be judgemental. But, it is what it is. I find myself in a loop of loneliness and almost at the same instance a feeling of not wanting to be around people. I have hobbies I like. But, I hate the internal politics. And lack of a better term, the quote, "dick measureing" that happens in these hobby groups I use to participate in.

I guess im hyper vigilant and when I find something with someone I'm not willing to tolerate. I don't keep pursuing the relationship. Romantic or not.

First time poster. If not allowed, feel free to delete. I'll try to keep it short. Male 30. My mom needs a procedure done, a medical test. She has an "on again off again" man friend that is also an alcoholic. Originally he was going to take her. Well, last I knew they had since broken it off. So, I agreed to take vacation time to take travel and take her. After i've ironed out all the details. I find out he's back in the picture. "Mutiple years of on and off. Swears never again. To only have him back that night."

I mentioned to her that since he's back around his he gunna take you? She said she doesn't trust he'll be sober enough to take her. And that I need a break anyway, and she wants to see me. I mean i appreciate the sentiment. And I don't need a break. But, kinda would like to use my vacation time for something I'd like to do. I feel used and frustrated again. But, fear that if I stand up. It will only make the situation worse.

My mother and I have had a rocky relationship, to say the least. Ever since my dad, her husband died. Can be very volatile.

I'm in just being selfish or is she being the one kinda manipulating the situation?

Thank you for your time.

I fucking swear I must've been like an SS Major in a past life to have my luck. 30 jobs in 6 years, 6 moves, 2 ex wives. Entire family dead. Both ex wives dads died in my house, alcohol liver failure. I've had boughts of sobriety 2 decent 6 month periods in 15 years. Now, I took my dog to the vet and he had cancer. He's old, and I kinda expected it. So, it could be operated on. I have money, but not rich. It's on his leg. A mass.

Its just like; "whats the point in anything it's just one more goodbye."

I was doing good. got all my chores done yesterday. ate good, grocery shopped. THEN..... I decided since i was doing so good. I could cut loose a little bit. got drunk, ended up over at some ladies house i just met. I woke up in a house I've never been to. in a bad side of town. she wants me to come back over when she gets out of work. i have to go to work. But, its not gunna happen. I get so lonely, then end up fucking some random chick....... UGHHGHGHGH Finish this drink and go back to bed.....wtf