Anxiety and Job Search
Hi all.
I just went through a 3 stage interview process for a dream position. It would have been my first salaried position out of college in an industry that is notoriously difficult to break into, and for a subject matter that I particularly enjoyed. They flew me across the country for the final interview and I got to meet people on the team and have lunch with them and have 4 back to back interviews, personality and technical.
The interview process was excruciating for my anxiety. I had multiple sleepless nights, heart pumping before every interview. I simply cared far too much and wanted to get it right. I experienced tons of latent anxiety during the waiting game. I just wasn’t capable of doing anything.
Lo and behold, despite me thinking that I nailed the whole interview, I got a rejection letter in the mail this morning.
I am devastated. I was already exhausted from this process that took months. It is the only interview I’ve gotten, and I’ve applied for many positions.
I don’t think I’m mentally capable of going through this again.