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This season specifically I've been really struggling to play magik both in the sense that im losing my skill and my champ icon makes me feel like a fraud sometimes as I've just been doing so bad gameplay wise (could either be out of practice or my mental is bad due to personal irl events). However my inability to play her is also in a literal sense because im usually the first person to select dps and then the team ends up in a selection like: 3 dps, 2 tanks, and 1 support so I end up switching over to a support like whitefox.

This is made even worse by the fact that sometimes the 1 other support has selected WF so I have to play a support I dont like. So when im doing either ranked or just too tired for this stress of trying to bounce around the team comp I just insta lock whitefox because im unlikely to get to play magik, and I can at least be guaranteed to play the support I want. Low and behold when I do that it's almost always the mythical 2/2/2 comp almost like this game is telling this is my place.

(Not even going to mention how this season took Whitefox outback and shot her)

Another night gaming another night having my speech impediment made fun of.

I'm so tired of having people use it against me.

People have said I sound like a discord moderator people say I have the accent of a baby.

It shouldn't affect me because they are worthless nobodies but it still hurts its an insecurity of mine and it's constantly used against me.

Why are people like this?

Am I encountering a vocal minority?

Do these "people" derrive joy, and fill their own void by hurting others?

Or do they just not care? They think so little of their actions that they have no regard for the influence it has on this world. On me.

I try to be positive, to be kind, to try and make a difference, to be a net positive. And yet I feel like the gaming community is a net negative.

Part of me wishes these people are only like this in game so they aren't hurting people irl. But another part of me hopes they conduct themselves the same way in person so those around them know what kind of person they are.