Too obsessed with flowing?
This may be a weird post but after Wakaan I've come to realize that I may be too obsessed with flowing. I say this because festivals used to be my place to connect with my friends and strangers. Ever since I started flowing, now I just completely lock into the music and flow for hours because it's the only time in my life where my brain is quiet. But I'm realizing maybe I'm doing it too much, because after the fest my husband has all these amazing stories of connecting with friends and strangers and I honestly don't talk to people much, and don't even notice most of the things/people happening around me because I am just completely in the moment absorbed into the music. Maybe part of me is using my flow toys to avoid socializing. I used to have a close rave family for almost a decade and it fell apart, and after that raves just kind of changed for me and I feel more closed off to opening up to people at festivals. Idk how to balance this because flow brings me so much peace and joy and quiet in the chaos of life but I fear true connection is passing me by because of it. I wonder if always playing with flow toys makes you seem unapproachable too, because people don't want to bother you while you're doing it? I probably flowed at least from 5pm-3AM everyday at wakaan with minimal breaks. Sorry if this doesn't belong here, but I'm wondering if anyone else experiences this?