u/Inner_Investment_186

Syempre hindi, nakakapagod din pala pag may goal ka sa buhay pero wala kang concrete plan kung paano mo sisimulan. Nakakapagod mag freestyle sa buhay sana lang nakakausap kita para medyo ganahan naman ako..hahah

Busy mo kasi siguro, parang mas okay pa sakin yung nababadtrip ka kasi nonsense ako madalas kausap kesa sa hindi tayo nag uusap,,,,hahah ulet.

Sana kahit magpashort hair ka di ibig sabihin nun kakalimutan mo na ko, pero patingin nga kung cute ka lalo jan sa trip mo hahahah.

Aniweys, Goodnight pa ba sasabihin pag 1:18 ng madaling araw? Sige Goodnight S.

Hahaha

Kidding aside, gustong gusto talaga kita imessage, kasi parang di ka okay e, di ko lang alam ano sasabihin ko, ano dapat idahilan bakit ako nagmesssage bigla. Last na message ko sayo di mo din nabasa. Nababadtrip na din ako sa sarili kasi bat ba ko natatakot? wala naman akong ginawang masama diba? Pero baka kasi meron di ko lang alam.

Basta mag iingat ka lagi, kung kailangan mong umiyak para gumaan loob mo andito naman ako, sabihin mo sakin sino umaway sayo basta wag lang si papa natin (djklng).

Papayaman lang ako tas tatanan na kita. Hahah

Kamusta ka na? Tagal na din nating di nag uusap ha, sana okay ka lang kahit sobrang busy mo sa pag aaral hahah. Malapit na din pala end ng school year, vacation na at malapit na din birthday mo, kala mo makakalimutan ko birthday mo no. Sobrang layo mo, di ko pa afford yung gift na deserve mo hahah, pero gagawa ako ng paraan para kahit papano maging part pa din ako ng araw na yun, sana lang tanggapin mo pero okay lang din kung hindi ikaw masusunod🤣🫡.

Medyo okay naman na ko, kahit papano may nasisumulan na. Dami ko sana gustong ikwento sayo at gusto din kitang makakwentuhan, marinig yung mga rant mo kung meron man. Sorry din kung antagal kong di nag message naduduwag pa ko eh hahah, pero sana talaga okay ka ngayon at lagi kang mag iingat, ako din di ako madadapa hahah pramis. Hahah.

-ako lang to ano ka ba.

I appreciate this sub very much, i was able to find an outlet to vent instead of writing it with my doctor's prescription kind of hand writing.. Learn from other people's perspectives that makes me realize a lot of things. I somehow lack social skills and always trying to hide from people around me. I'm troubled but eager to do something about it and be better.

I'm learning to accept things even if it doesn't favor me. That's life and it happens!!...Not trying to control everything to lessen frustrations,,, I'm learning not to avoid, but to ask myself "what could've done better?" If things didn't go well as planned,, facing it and figure out what's next. Having courage to face difficult situations seems impossible, but taking accountability is important too,, now I understand that it's more appreciated than running away from it.

Getting back, whatever the outcome of whatever my next action is, regrets will never be there,,, It's already a win that I met you and was able to have your company even for a short period of time. What i can say is, you're a significant part of me becoming a man.. I still admire you, and I'll use this feeling to get up whenever something brings me down. I always believe that some things are better left unsaid but not this one. So yeah, I'll leave it here for now.

To: SophistiCATed lady of wisdom

This could be the last cringe I'll do here... It's been months, and here I am, sending you a message without a fear of hearing rejection, but with willingness to accept and know what you really feel about me. I always fear that I appear to be not your type and our character doesn't complement well.. But I admire you,, and thinking that if I really like the person, why i don't just come up and be there for them, no matter how it turns out to be in the end.....then keep in mind that at least I'm able to tell you how much I admire and care for you.

I told you before that I'd rather have you as my friend, than not have you in my life at all,, that I'm okay if you don't feel the same way as I do,, I'll admit it's a lie,, because deep inside I want to be your partner so bad that I feel insecure about everything and trying to make things perfect before I come up to you... It's only this time I realize how stupid and selfish I am for wanting that, and those are the reasonss why I fear reaching out because I still thnik i'm a loser and might not fit with your standards,, scared of getting dumped and cut off by you... And look, we cannot even call ourselves friends now.

But things happen beyond our control sometimes right?.. I'm still not a better person than I was before, but I can say that I'm doing my best to get there and work hard to be one... I'm tired of being a nobody,, and I can't just sit and wait to become "somebody" before telling you how I really feel.

Again, I still admire you, I like you, I care about you!...Just let me do things again. I don't want to hear "you should stop" from me or other people. I wanna hear it from you!... I know it will hurt, but it'll pass, just really need to hear it from you i guess.

It felt great, just to think about the idea of doing it. So this is what it feels like being free, I finally realize that the cage that Im in is just made of thoughts after all.

I don't know what to say, I just really want to talk to you.

If he wanted to he would, It's simple right?....hell no it wasn't, at least for me.

Words are easy to say but hard to execute in real life, it really depends on what situation u are in. I love you, but this isn't the right time,,, does that mean I dont care about you? of course not, i care and think about you everyday.. its only because i still feel worst about myself and i don't want to come up to you being a nobody, I want to be a better person before pursuing someone.. and yes, im ready for the consequences of waiting, I will accept it. I'm happy to admire you from afar and i dont see anything wrong about it. And when the time comes that I'm better and stable,, if I'm lucky enough that you're still single, I will pursue you 1000000× better. I know showing care and love for your special someone is important, but half of me thinks that,, timing is a big factor as well isn't it?

I guess I just want my second shot to be good as much as possible, I already frustrate you the first time, I don't want to have that same mistake again.

Good Morning S! A sudden boost of creativity jolt my mind,,,,, it's been a while since we talk, I'm not good in chemistry but just wanna say that I miss you so much since you ARgon.....Bye, see you next time. Ha

I told you before that I think I love you already..... But you said, you doubt what I feel for you is love,, given that we only talk for a short amount of time...and yeah you got a point so I question myself,,.. and I somehow agree it could only be admiration and it'll pass... I did enjoy your company,,, the chitchats we have, deep talks and even the way you get mad because I'm stubborn sometimes,,, you also said you're too much to handle,, well, I don't mind, I will love whatever is wrong with you.

Now it's been months since our last conversation, time makes me realize that I really like you or I admire you, whatever you want to call it. The thing is,,,I chose to like, admire and or even love you... I'm hopeful that you're still single after you graduate, I'm still working on things right now so that I'm able to see you sooner. I promise myself that I'll make it happen starting today.

I wont mind if you will not like me back, don't feel pressured about it, I will enjoy doing silly things if it makes you happy, it's more than enough... please, just let me do things and see if it changes your mind.

Kalmado akong nang i stalk kani kanina lang at napag desisyunang gamitin ang half swipe method para makita ang story ng aking binibini. Kumpyansa ako na magtatagumpay dahil pangatlong beses ko na itong gagawin. Ngunit nagkamali ako,,, dahil na full swipe ko ito at napabilang sa mga official viewers ng story niya... ako ay nataranta at nabalisa ng isa't kalahating minuto, grabe ang kabang aking naramdaman.....pagkatapos kumalma napag isip isip ko na wala na akong magagawa at nangyari na ang masalimuot na trahedya,, mas pinili ko na lamang na i hart reax ito upang bigyan ng katarungan ang aking pagkakamali...hindi ko na ulit kailanman gagamitin ang nasabing method dahil ito'y lubhang mapanganib, babalik na lang ako sa nakasanayan kong Airplane mode jutsu na kung saan ako mas bihasa.

Lesson Learned: Matulog ng maaga, wag ka papagutom, ingat ka palagi at higit sa lahat I love you.