u/Inotfleabag

Hi I’m 19f and I started using Adderall when I was like 15. When I first started I had gotten a whole bottle from my younger cousin who wasn’t taking it. I had caught her flushing it and I ended up telling her that if she wasn’t gonna take them I would. So every month for like a year I’d get a whole bottle. It started off really small I would just take them for tests but I think almost immediately I noticed that when I took it I felt a lot better about myself. I think people treated me better when I was on it in high school. I lost a lot of weight like 40 pounds in 3 months because I just wouldn’t eat. Eventually my mom found all of them and I just stopped cold turkey back then but now I’m grown and I got back on them about a year ago. I feel like I can’t quiet just cold turkey and it’s something I need to keep going. I take them at work, my days off, during school, just to go out with friends. I feel like I can’t function without them but I also know I’m barely functioning with them. I don’t sleep enough, I barely want to eat half the time, I don’t even really enjoy taking them anymore it’s just a cycle I’m struggling to break. Today something snapped in me I think I just accepted that it is an addiction not something I’m gonna wake up from tomorrow and not want anymore. I had a break down in my car after working an over night shift last night because I’m so emotionally drained and I just don’t recognize who I am anymore. I have so many things I’m doing in my life right now that this would affect if anyone found out what was really going on. I’m a nursing major in college and I have a job interview to be a correctional officer in a week and I just feel like this is gonna fuck everything up for me. But a part of me knows I don’t deserve these things in the condition I’m in. Im going to try to quiet for the long run after today because it terrifies me that this runs my life the way it does.

Hello so I’m 19f and I’ve been texting with this guy he’s 19M for about month now. We officially met on instagram but we went to middle school together so we’ve known of each other but never actually talked before now. Mostly we just talk about what manga we’re reading and like random little things we have in common. The problem is both of us were talking about relationships and we both haven’t really dated since getting out of relationships in high school so we both haven’t no game whatsoever. Like I can’t tell if we’re flirting or if I’m reading too much into stuff. I also don’t even know if he knows I’m flirting with him because I’m not very bold with it. I’ve been wanting to ask him on a date but I’m not sure how to go about that or if I should wait a little longer to like develop a deep friendship? I feel like a month is fast but I also don’t really like “talking stages”. I also think I should add I have terrible social anxiety and me messaging him in the first place was a big step for me.

Hello so I got really sick in may and went over on days. I also didn’t know about the fmla thingy because my store manager never told us before anyone mentions it. But there’s a manager spot open right now that I want to apply for but I won’t be eligible for another week or two and I’m wondering if there’s anyway around that. My store manager said I’d be good for the promotion but I know policy says you have to wait 90 days so I’m just wondering. Sorry if that’s a stupid question.