u/Interesting-Count815

It took me forever to book myself a psych appointment. They prescribed me mirt since I’m underweight and another that I didn’t start yet. I took mirt for a week and it made me constipated which I would have been able to deal with fine if I knew the effect was temporary but apparently it isn’t. According to online it doesn’t really go away on its own but you can mitigate it by drinking lots of water and fiber and then laxatives if that didn’t work. I didn’t wanna live like that. I know you’re supposed to drink 8 cups of water a day anyway but I didn’t wanna live worrying everyday if I’m drinking enough water just to be slightly less constipated then I was. I also was not gonna have laxatives and stool softener be apart of my regular life routine especially because before I started mirt, I never had any issues with this.
I only lasted a week on mirt and then I almost started crying because I was frustrated with not being able to shit and how I hated that this was something occupying my mind all day when I was supposed to be enjoying myself and I decided that I just couldn’t take it anymore. I was literally only on it for a week.
I hate that it took me forever to make an appointment and after only a week im right back to where I started. It’s also frustrating because constipation was the only negative side effect. I liked having a bigger appetite and being tranquilized at night.

My face is usually fine but I’ve been breaking out out of now where and I started the meds a week ago so idk if this is the cause. Any experience ?

I started about a week ago and have been constipated ever since. I have never had this problem before. I don’t even poop after I drink coffee anymore. I feel like I haven’t properly pooped in a week. I look and feel bloated. Im not staying on this medicine if it’s going to be like this. I keep telling myself that it’s temporary because if it’s not I’m quitting it.

Can we just talk about it here? I’ve never been and prob never will because it seems so violating and vulnerable and I think people who’ve had sex will never understand it from this perspective.

I will never not feel some version of this way. I will never experience romantic love. I will never have sex with someone who loves me. I will never have sex at all. I will never feel fulfilled. I will never love myself. I will always be feel resentment towards my father though I love him. My parents will always hate each other. I am going to die alone. I will never attempt the hobbies that interest me. I will waste every day and regret it. I will not be truly happy. I will always regret. I will never be satisfied. I will never have closure on where I end and my mental illness begins. I will never know for certain whether I even have a mental illness. I don’t know if I will ever really learn how to deal.

I will never not feel some version of this way. I will never experience romantic love. I will never have sex with someone who loves me. I will never have sex at all. I will never feel fulfilled. I will never love myself. I will always be feel resentment towards my father though I love him. My parents will always hate each other. I am going to die alone. I will never attempt the hobbies that interest me. I will waste every day and regret it. I will not be truly happy. I will always regret. I will never be satisfied. I will never have closure on where I end and my mental illness begins. I will never know for certain whether I even have a mental illness. I don’t know if I will ever really learn how to deal.

I need professional insight PLEASE 🙏

I 23F think I’m depressed but I also think I’m fine. The most accurate form of depression for me would be PDD. For a long time, my friends would insist that I’m depressed and I would always respond that I just have a pessimistic personality and that I wouldn’t be able to do the things I do if I was depressed. But that was before I knew that PDD was a thing.
My main issue is that I have felt this way for so long that I don’t know what is considered ‘normal’ or not. I cannot compare the way I feel now to the way I felt in the past in order to answer questions regarding things like ‘feeling more tired than normal’ because this is my normal and I don’t remember when it wasn’t. I don’t know if that makes sense.

I do not like myself. I feel very inadequate and incompetent all the time. I feel like other people know how to be a person while I have to make a conscious effort to try in certain situations and I either pass or fail. I find no joy in eating and I wish it wasn’t a necessity to living. I have no hobbies because any possible hobby that I can think of will not give me pleasure. It feels performative somehow to try. I have not cried in two years. My range of emotions is smaller than other people I think, so the worst I feel on average is not far off from the best. I love laying down. I do not like parties and going out to bars. I get so miserable when I do that I practically shut down. When I do ‘special’ things like go to a concert, I enjoy myself and I am glad to be there but I will look around and everyone seems genuine and bright and happy to be there, while I am actively telling myself to enjoy it and be happy and questioning why am I not happier than I am and why can’t I dance or be carefree like them. In very rare occasions, if I am embarrassed or something like that, my thoughts and mood turn very negative like a switch being turned off. I become very absorbed immediately in my self contempt.

I also cannot drive. This is a big problem. I got my license years ago, but my anxiety gets so bad while driving that it is so unenjoyable and I do not trust myself to make decisions. I also have never felt the amount of anxiety I feel when giving presentations or having to speak in class. It is horrible. I dread it weeks in advance. The morning of my presentation for my professor, I did not sleep well because I kept waking up, I could not eat breakfast because I felt like I was gonna throw up, and my teeth were chattering as soon as I walked in the building. I also screwed it up because I was so nervous.
My mental health is affecting school I think. Law school requires a lot of mental energy that I do not have. I dragged myself through last semester. I could not bring myself to do a lot of readings but I don’t know if it’s because they’re insanely boring or I’m ’depressed’ or both.
I’m hesitant to say I’m depressed because I don’t want to be attention seeking or dramatic. I do genuinely laugh and have good days and look forward to things and stuff. I’m also functioning like I can do school and be social and stuff. I have been thinking of making a psych appointment for a year, and with the combination of my two friends insisting I’m depressed, and everything listed above, I probably am.

My biggest concern is that I do not want meds to change my personality. I do not want to be someone I don’t know. But I do want something to just enjoy life and be able to drive and not have presentation anxiety. Some things are deep rooted in a way that I don’t believe meds can fix. Also, I am never going to go to therapy so that is not an option.

I need professional insight PLEASE 🙏

I 23F think I’m depressed but I also think I’m fine. The most accurate form of depression for me would be PDD. For a long time, my friends would insist that I’m depressed and I would always respond that I just have a pessimistic personality and that I wouldn’t be able to do the things I do if I was depressed. But that was before I knew that PDD was a thing.
My main issue is that I have felt this way for so long that I don’t know what is considered ‘normal’ or not. I cannot compare the way I feel now to the way I felt in the past in order to answer questions regarding things like ‘feeling more tired than normal’ because this is my normal and I don’t remember when it wasn’t. I don’t know if that makes sense.

I do not like myself. I feel very inadequate and incompetent all the time. I feel like other people know how to be a person while I have to make a conscious effort to try in certain situations and I either pass or fail. I find no joy in eating and I wish it wasn’t a necessity to living. I have no hobbies because any possible hobby that I can think of will not give me pleasure. It feels performative somehow to try. I have not cried in two years. My range of emotions is smaller than other people I think, so the worst I feel on average is not far off from the best. I love laying down. I do not like parties and going out to bars. I get so miserable when I do that I practically shut down. When I do ‘special’ things like go to a concert, I enjoy myself and I am glad to be there but I will look around and everyone seems genuine and bright and happy to be there, while I am actively telling myself to enjoy it and be happy and questioning why am I not happier than I am and why can’t I dance or be carefree like them. In very rare occasions, if I am embarrassed or something like that, my thoughts and mood turn very negative like a switch being turned off. I become very absorbed immediately in my self contempt.

I also cannot drive. This is a big problem. I got my license years ago, but my anxiety gets so bad while driving that it is so unenjoyable and I do not trust myself to make decisions. I also have never felt the amount of anxiety I feel when giving presentations or having to speak in class. It is horrible. I dread it weeks in advance. The morning of my presentation for my professor, I did not sleep well because I kept waking up, I could not eat breakfast because I felt like I was gonna throw up, and my teeth were chattering as soon as I walked in the building. I also screwed it up because I was so nervous.
My mental health is affecting school I think. Law school requires a lot of mental energy that I do not have. I dragged myself through last semester. I could not bring myself to do a lot of readings but I don’t know if it’s because they’re insanely boring or I’m ’depressed’ or both.
I’m hesitant to say I’m depressed because I don’t want to be attention seeking or dramatic. I do genuinely laugh and have good days and look forward to things and stuff. I’m also functioning like I can do school and be social and stuff. I have been thinking of making a psych appointment for a year, and with the combination of my two friends insisting I’m depressed, and everything listed above, I probably am.

My biggest concern is that I do not want meds to change my personality. I do not want to be someone I don’t know. But I do want something to just enjoy life and be able to drive and not have presentation anxiety. Some things are deep rooted in a way that I don’t believe meds can fix. Also, I am never going to go to therapy so that is not an option.

I 23F think I’m depressed but I also think I’m fine. The most accurate form of depression for me would be PDD. For a long time, my friends would insist that I’m depressed and I would always respond that I just have a pessimistic personality and that I wouldn’t be able to do the things I do if I was depressed. But that was before I knew that PDD was a thing.
My main issue is that I have felt this way for so long that I don’t know what is considered ‘normal’ or not. I cannot compare the way I feel now to the way I felt in the past in order to answer questions regarding things like ‘feeling more tired than normal’ because this is my normal and I don’t remember when it wasn’t. I don’t know if that makes sense.

I do not like myself. I feel very inadequate and incompetent all the time. I feel like other people know how to be a person while I have to make a conscious effort to try in certain situations and I either pass or fail. I find no joy in eating and I wish it wasn’t a necessity to living. I have no hobbies because any possible hobby that I can think of will not give me pleasure. It feels performative somehow to try. I have not cried in two years. My range of emotions is smaller than other people I think, so the worst I feel on average is not far off from the best. I love laying down. I do not like parties and going out to bars. I get so miserable when I do that I practically shut down. When I do ‘special’ things like go to a concert, I enjoy myself and I am glad to be there but I will look around and everyone seems genuine and bright and happy to be there, while I am actively telling myself to enjoy it and be happy and questioning why am I not happier than I am and why can’t I dance or be carefree like them. In very rare occasions, if I am embarrassed or something like that, my thoughts and mood turn very negative like a switch being turned off. I become very absorbed immediately in my self contempt.

I also cannot drive. This is a big problem. I got my license years ago, but my anxiety gets so bad while driving that it is so unenjoyable and I do not trust myself to make decisions. I also have never felt the amount of anxiety I feel when giving presentations or having to speak in class. It is horrible. I dread it weeks in advance. The morning of my presentation for my professor, I did not sleep well because I kept waking up, I could not eat breakfast because I felt like I was gonna throw up, and my teeth were chattering as soon as I walked in the building. I also screwed it up because I was so nervous.
My mental health is affecting school I think. Law school requires a lot of mental energy that I do not have. I dragged myself through last semester. I could not bring myself to do a lot of readings but I don’t know if it’s because they’re insanely boring or I’m ’depressed’ or both.
I’m hesitant to say I’m depressed because I don’t want to be attention seeking or dramatic. I do genuinely laugh and have good days and look forward to things and stuff. I’m also functioning like I can do school and be social and stuff. I have been thinking of making a psych appointment for a year, and with the combination of my two friends insisting I’m depressed, and everything listed above, I probably am.

My biggest concern is that I do not want meds to change my personality. I do not want to be someone I don’t know. But I do want something to just enjoy life and be able to drive and not have presentation anxiety. Some things are deep rooted in a way that I don’t believe meds can fix. Also, I am never going to go to therapy so that is not an option.

I 23F have absolutely no concept of what it is liked to be loved or sought out. Like NOTHING. I have never have had an actual crush on someone. I have never kissed anybody. I have never been asked out in a way that wasn’t alluding to hooking up. I obviously have never had sex. I have no idea at all what it is like to love or be loved, even just ‘interested’.
I’m not asexual (Ik some of you might say) but I think that going my whole life without being able to indulge in these feelings has caused them to shrivel and die. My libido is nonexistent. I don’t know what it would be like to be attracted or want anybody anymore, and I think that part of me has just died. I like to believe that I will come across someone, but I don’t think I will. People always say tHeY ComE wHeN yOu LeasT ExPect iT but bruh you don’t fucking know that Bffr. I know my life and I know myself and I know how things have always gone and feel how they are going to go. I don’t see it.
I think I have lost the ability to love romantically. I might be a virgin when I’m 30. I will never know what it is like to have sex with someone u love. Or possibility sex at all.
It feels like I’ve missed out on a key part of the human experience. And I will n

I 23F have absolutely no concept of what it is liked to be loved or sought out. Like NOTHING. I have never have had an actual crush on someone. I have never kissed anybody. I have never been asked out in a way that wasn’t alluding to hooking up. I obviously have never had sex. I have no idea at all what it is like to love or be loved, even just ‘interested’.
I’m not asexual (Ik some of you might say) but I think that going my whole life without being able to indulge in these feelings has caused them to shrivel and die. My libido is nonexistent. I don’t know what it would be like to be attracted or want anybody anymore, and I think that part of me has just died. I like to believe that I will come across someone, but I don’t think I will. People always say tHeY ComE wHeN yOu LeasT ExPect iT but bruh you don’t fucking know that Bffr. I know my life and I know myself and I know how things have always gone and feel how they are going to go. I don’t see it.
I think I have lost the ability to love romantically. I might be a virgin when I’m 30. I will never know what it is like to have sex with someone u love. Or possibility sex at all.
It feels like I’ve missed out on a key part of the human experience. And I will n

I thought this was normal until I saw a Tik tok that mentioned and everyone in the comments were like PEOPLE SORT BY KUDOS?!!

Please give me ur mastered techniques on how to filter. I’ve read so many fics in this one fandom that I’m having a hard time finding news fics I haven’t read. It’s hard to find more recent ones that are also good. How do u guys find the hidden treasures

Preferably post tlg. Self recs welcome ofc

I’m 23 and have never even held hands romantically with a person. I have parents who love me and close friends but I do feel this longing for romantic love. It’s pathetic and I hate myself for it. I go through phases where I feel like my eyes are open and I know and feel that relationships are not the key to happiness and most are unideal for what I want. But recently I have been wanting to be loved. It is such an uncharted territory for me. I think it’s because of watching love in media recently that has made me yearn it.
I met someone today that my friends have been trying to set me up with. And a small pathetic part of me thought that maybe that would be the very start of ‘something’. Which is pathetic to feel about a person you never even met. Nothing happened and I don’t think they felt any bit of anything towards me in return. I don’t take offense to that or anything. But it’s just really been another hit into my belief that I will die alone never having known love in that way. I know it’s not the worst thing in the world. I admire women who never marry and are content. I aspire to be like them. But again I am pretty pathetic at the moment. It all just feels hopeless. Like the universe or god or whatever has already agreed that I will simply never experience that. I know that the few people who read and comment are gonna say that I’m young and there’s time and whatever, and this is true but, I am not going to change. I don’t see my luck or the world changing either. It is unfortunate.
I wish I was more content with myself. But that requires a lot of self work. I know love will not solve my problems but it would be nice to be thrown a bone ya know.

I didn’t even make a throwaway for this. I have no shame.

I think I have a problem because every good fic that I find recommended or filter for I have read already. Any recent fics u liked drop below. Self recs welcome

Ilya gets hurt while playing for the cens and when the cens show up to the hospital, him and Shane are sleeping in the hospital bed. They don’t wake them up or anything so Shane and Ilya have no idea that they know. But the cens want them to know that they know so that they feel comfortable not hiding but they also don’t wanna overstep, so they start dropping hints and/or scheming to get Ilya to come out on his own and they’re just awful about it. Maybe there can be a miscommunication type deal where Ilya ends up thinking that they’re homophobic or that something’s wrong. Or instead of that maybe it’s like Friends where ‘they don’t know that we know that they know’ and Shane and Ilya start fucking with them.

Has room to be angsty or just crack or both.

Ilya gets hurt while playing for the cens and when the cens show up to the hospital, him and Shane are sleeping in the hospital bed. They don’t wake them up or anything so Shane and Ilya have no idea that they know. But the cens want them to know that they know so that they feel comfortable not hiding but they also don’t wanna overstep, so they start dropping hints and/or scheming to get Ilya to come out on his own and they’re just awful about it. Maybe there can be a miscommunication type deal where Ilya ends up thinking that they’re homophobic or that something’s wrong. Or instead of that maybe it’s like Friends where ‘they don’t know that we know that they know’ and Shane and Ilya start fucking with them.

Has room to be angsty or just crack or both.

Obvi I’m not gonna straight up ask but I do wanna request a meeting or just discussion about it. What are the chances