u/Interesting-Exit7382

I had a normal , social life till 9 years old.

After that my father passed away , developed CPTSD got fat which led me to isolating in my home playing video games mostly.

At school I was severely bullied , especially when I would go infront of the class and present but had insane blockages.

This made me hate school as everyone including the teacher did not understand what was happening.

In high school I started looking better , had the attention from a lot of women but I rejected all of them because of the stutter.

Im severely anxious and refuse to talk to people , I have become very angry and impulsive , I did have a friend group from age 13-17 but did everyone pretty much went abroad.

Now at university is hell , my stutter has since become much worse and I cant even say my name , my legs start shaking , I start hearing static in my ear , arm falls of the desk.

What sucks the most is that I saw my entire childhood and teenagehood go by being traumatized and scared to talk to people.

Now I have no one to go out with or even really talk to , bought all the exams at university because I cant be bothered doing that shit.

I was always lonely during school trips and would look at others joke , smile , and feel good.

I want a chance at a normal life , it is impossible accepting myself and seeing the trauma get worse and worse everyday.

19M

I was a happy kid growing up till about the age of 10 , my father passed away , my brother left the country to go to the USA and hasn't come back since.

I was also starting to develop a stutter that has only gotten worse since.

Now I study at university and it's absolute hell , I tried to present once infront of the class and everyone laughed as I just started blocking and couldn't say a word.

I have isolated myself a lot in my childhood , luckily I have found a friend group at around 13 that I was hanging out with quite often so that made me feel better , I hit the gym and transformed my body.

But now everything feels hopeless and meaningless , I have severe anxiety and depression , I can barely eat now or have enough energy to hit the gym.

My stutter is only getting worse and I also have problems focusing on tasks.

I fear a lot for my future , as I barely even go out now , every single day is exhausting because I will stutter on every word.

19M

I was a happy kid growing up till about the age of 10 , my father passed away , my brother left the country to go to the USA and hasn't come back since.

I was also starting to develop a stutter that has only gotten worse since.

Now I study at university and it's absolute hell , I tried to present once infront of the class and everyone laughed as I just started blocking and couldn't say a word.

I have isolated myself a lot in my childhood , luckily I have found a friend group at around 13 that I was hanging out with quite often so that made me feel better , I hit the gym and transformed my body.

But now everything feels hopeless and meaningless , I have severe anxiety and depression , I can barely eat now or have enough energy to hit the gym.

My stutter is only getting worse and I also have problems focusing on tasks.

I fear a lot for my future , as I barely even go out now , every single day is exhausting because I will stutter on every word.

19M

I was a happy kid growing up till about the age of 10 , my father passed away , my brother left the country to go to the USA and hasn't come back since.

I was also starting to develop a stutter that has only gotten worse since.

Now I study at university and it's absolute hell , I tried to present once infront of the class and everyone laughed as I just started blocking and couldn't say a word.

I have isolated myself a lot in my childhood , luckily I have found a friend group at around 13 that I was hanging out with quite often so that made me feel better , I hit the gym and transformed my body.

But now everything feels hopeless and meaningless , I have severe anxiety and depression , I can barely eat now or have enough energy to hit the gym.

My stutter is only getting worse and I also have problems focusing on tasks.

I fear a lot for my future , as I barely even go out now , every single day is exhausting because I will stutter on every word.

I keep imagining what it would be like to hang out with every beautiful girl I know , hang out with every guy I have met , go to everyone's home , how life would have been if I went to a different school , if my father was still alive, Its almost like I want to be everywhere at the same time.