u/Interesting_Gap_6062

I'm in highschool. I used to be a straight A, occasional B student, without even studying much.

I know that when I actually put the effort in, I can pass tests easily, but I just can't get myself to care. I've just do the bare minimum id anything at all, and I don't turn in homework/assignments anymore. The only time I actually do work is in group projects, because I don't want to be a burden to the other in the project. As long as I get to graduate I'm content.

People asks me all the time how I don't care that I fail, but I honestly don't know. I don't have a goal for the future, I don't even know if I want to go to college at this point. No job or career seems interesting. Before anyone starts talking about how difficult living in poverty is, I already know, my family has struggled financially my whole life and I've even helped my parents with money.

It might be good to mention that I've been diagnosed with depression for the last year or so, but I want to get better, it just seems impossible.

Does anyone have any tips? Or stories of their own that might make me motivated/realize how important this is.

Sorry if anything in this post is vague, feel free to ask me to clarify something

I have pretty bad cramps but I felt better after taking some painkillers, so I decided to practice oboe.

I only played for 5 minutes and my cramps were almost unbearable and I had to stop. It makes me so frustrated to not be able to play for a week each month. I really want to practise, especially since I have my lesson tomorrow but I haven't been able too.

Does anyone else have any tips? This sucks.

!! For context I'm also a girl !!

So today I was standing in the bathroom and fixing my makeup, when another girl my age walked by.

She said "Hey, I don't know you but you're really pretty." The way she said it sounded really genuine.

I honestly freaked out because I've never gotten complimented by a stranger before. I was like screaming and saying "you too!" because she was drop dead gorgeous.

But I got really confused because after my response she like looked at me weird and laughed. It wasn't that kind of laugh you do when laugh at something silly, it sounded mean. She walked away after that.

Was she sarcastic all along? It seems kinda weird to me since we were all alone so it wasn't like there was a group of girls making fun of me. Maybe she really was being nice but was weirded out by my reaction.

I don't know if I'm overthinking things. I just can't stop thinking, I feel really bad about this. I blanked out and didn't know how to respond. :(

!! I'M ALSO A GIRL!!

So today I was standing in the bathroom and fixing my makeup, when another girl my age walked by.

She said "Hey, I don't know you but you're really pretty." The way she said it sounded really genuine.

I honestly freaked out because I've never gotten complimented by a stranger before. I was line screaming and saying you too because she was drop dead gorgeous.

But I got really confused because after my response she like looked at me weird and laughed. It wasn't that kind of laugh you do when laugh at something silly, it sounded mean. She walked away after that.

Was she sarcastic all along? It seems kinda weird to me since we were all alone so it wasn't like there was a group of girls making fun of me. Maybe she really was being nice but was weirded out by my reaction.

I don't know if I'm overthinking things. I just can't stop thinking about this.