u/International-Tie612 — reddlx

26F desperately in need of buddies!! 🥹🙏

I put NA as the region, but realistically you can be from anywhere! Timezone wise NA might be the best tho :))

I’m a 26 F from Cali, and I’m really hoping to make some cool friends here! I only play on PC 😁
I don’t really have any irl friends or online friends, and solo Q’ing ARAM mayhem all the time is getting super lonely so I thought I’d reach out to see if I could find some cool buddies!

I’m open to playing anything really (even though I might be really bad) but mostly play Rust and League :)) I really want to assemble a group to play an MMO with, because I absolutely love for the grind :’d

Other hobbies include but are not limited to gardening, listening to music, drawing, and chatting with people!!

So please feel free to reach out 😄

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u/International-Tie612 — 1 day ago

▲ 1 r/steamsupport

Any hope to recover deleted account? Any suggestions?

So, I’m going to add a little context, but TLDR; ex abused me and forced me to delete Steam account that was my entire childhood. Is there any hope in recovering, or anything you guys would suggest doing?

I had my old account since 2016. It had my entire childhood on it. It meant the world to me, and my abusive ex forced me to delete it while beating me and yelling at me. He threatened to break my arm if I didn’t delete it, because he didn’t like that I was talking to my gamer friends who were men. He also made me delete all my social media and everything, but my steam account hurt me the most because I had spent so much money on games that I can never play again, and because it feels like he stole a giant part of my childhood.

It was deleted by him and the email was changed to his email before the account was deleted because he never wanted me logging in again.

It was so special and dear to me, so I was wondering if there’s anything that can be done about it? I know there probably isn’t, but I’m holding out on hope that maybe someone will have a really good tip or something about what I can/should do? Now that I’m out of that situation, I want to reclaim my identity and work on healing. But it feels like I can’t really heal because that part of me is tainted gone forever.

It was deleted in 2025, so it’s way past the few days you can recover it after you delete it.

I cry about my account sometimes because I had so many memories (screenshots, comments, friends, playtime) and it hurts me that it’s gone.

Steamsupport said there’s nothing that can be done and for me to just make a new account. But they told me the exact date it was deleted…. So if they were able to tell me the exact date it was deleted, doesn’t that mean that they still have some data about it in the system? Because I contacted them from a separate account since my original one is deleted now.

I’m holding onto a small amount of hope that maybe possibly there’s a way to recover it somehow? Or maybe somebody has some tips on what I could do?

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u/International-Tie612 — 1 day ago

▲ 380 r/toastme

[F26] really need some kindness right now. Doesn’t feel like it will ever get better.

It’s Mother’s Day today. Some people are out celebrating with their moms, and mine ruined my life. She left me with treatment resistant depression, PTSD, and severe anxiety.
Endured years and years of intense sexual abuse using animals to abuse me, emotional abuse, physical and verbal abuse.

I finally moved away from her, but my life is totally destroyed. Everything is terrifying to me. I’m always in fight or flight. Working feels like agony because I’m so depressed and anxious and have PTSD flashbacks/panic attacks at the slightest things. It’s exhausting. I want to get a lobotomy.

I can’t motivate or bring myself to do anything because I feel so bad and disgusting all the time.

She instilled in me that I am a worthless, stupid, ugly person who will never accomplish anything in life and that I should kill myself to spare those around me (her exact words)

She used family dogs to sexually abuse me, physically abusing me and forcing me to endure it if I resisted. This lasted from when I was 5, up until I was 10. Then she just started molesting me ‘normally’ herself because our family dog died.

My father took his life because of my mom’s verbal abuse, and I was the first one to find his bloody, decomposing body in his apartment when I went to visit him because they were divorced.

When the police came to investigate, my mother pushed my head down onto my dead dad’s cold, dead face covered in dried vomit and blood, and forced me to kiss him ‘goodbye’. She forced me to touch him in his casket as well.

How can someone live a normal life after all of that? I feel totally and utterly defeated. I feel like there’s no hope. Nobody understands.

I’m addicted to video games because it’s the only place I can let my mind rest, and escape to a world that isn’t as messed up and cold and this one. I used to love drawing concept art and splash arts for games as a hobby, but I can’t even do that anymore. I feel like I’ve lost all joy in my life.

I recently celebrated my 26th birthday all alone. Not one happy birthday text. Did absolutely nothing. Just sat and thought about how terrible my life has become. I just played ARAM mayhem for like 13 hours and went to bed.

I have no friends because I’m so depressed, and my abusive ex made me delete every single one of my social media accounts, making me lose contact with all of them.

Nobody sees me or cares about me.

I feel like I’ve been in a tunnel my entire life and I’ll never see the light at the end of it, so I want to curl up inside the tunnel and wait until I shrivel up and die.

Yay for animal crossing turnip notepad tho… :’()

u/International-Tie612 — 12 days ago