u/IntrepidDesign5565

25 F, I’ve been trying to improve myself for the past 3 years and I always end up back at square one. I make a schedule to stick to and it’ll only last for short time. The longest I sticked to a schedule was a month. I tried time blocking, setting up various alarms and reminders, todo lists, setting up systems, gamifying my life , positive self talk, journaling and reflecting but I always end up reverting my old ways .I want to improve my mindset, gain financial independence , stick to a healthy lifestyle and overall I want to prove to myself and my family that I’m a capable and a functional adult that doesn’t need to be taken care of but I always end up falling off. At this point it feels like a never ending cycle I’ll never get out of. Any suggestions on how to stay motivated and consistent?

25 F, I’ve been trying to improve myself for the past 3 years and I always end up back at square one. I make a schedule to stick to and it’ll only last for short time. The longest I sticked to a schedule was a month. I tried time blocking, setting up various alarms and reminders, todo lists, setting up systems, gamifying my life , positive self talk, journaling and reflecting but I always end up reverting my old ways .I want to improve my mindset, gain financial independence , stick to a healthy lifestyle and overall I want to prove to myself and my family that I’m a capable and a functional adult that doesn’t need to be taken care of but I always end up falling off. At this point it feels like a never ending cycle I’ll never get out of. Any suggestions on how to stay motivated and consistent?

I discovered that I’m bisexual a few months ago and only recently started thinking about putting myself out there . However I’m hesitant due to possiblity that I may have to preform oral. Not to trauma dump but I’ve had a couple non consensual experiences with women when I was younger and the act made me more or less traumatized. From what I hear oral sex is a big part of intimacy between women.