Worked hard, got 62%, friend got 70%, a backlog student got 79% — I feel completely lost
I’m a 2nd year CSE student and the last 1–2 months have been really rough mentally, academically, and physically. It started when I went to check my internal papers with my friend and saw a big drop in my marks compared to him and a class topper. That hit my confidence hard, especially socially since I already don’t talk much to people, especially girls. I went into study leave wanting to prove myself in end sems, but I procrastinated initially, then pushed hard in the last few days. My health got messed up (acidity, no sleep, skipped meals, even had to go to hospital), and it affected one of my exams badly.
On top of that, I faced what I genuinely feel was unfair checking in one subject where I expected much higher but got very low, and the teacher didn’t handle it well when I raised it. My final result is around 62.5%, while my friend got ~70% and another guy who previously had backlogs got ~79%. That comparison is messing with my head. Also socially, I feel like I’m getting left behind—my friend is bonding with others, talking about coding/internships with them, and I feel excluded. I just got home after 6 months and I want to use this 1-month vacation to completely reset myself (academics, coding, confidence, health), but right now I feel stuck, overwhelmed, and behind everyone. Any advice on how to rebuild from this phase and come back stronger?